actuallynotyou

OK here is my dilemma.
People are reading my journal, am I allowed to talk about it in my journal. I have no idea what the proper term for this is, but i'm sure one exists.
I think this is a fact that people just assume when they write in here that people are going to be reading it. I on the other hand had the exact oppisite expectation.
It was going to be my own little corner of sarcasm in this fun little "community". Where I could comment about everyone being so full of shit, and feel all smug and superior while sitting alone in the corner.
Funny how life never works out like that.
Instead I've got actual strangers reading my shit and I have no idea how to feel about that. Through no fault of my own I am now a part of the community, all be it a very very small part, that I was trying to comment on and be better than, which was my orginal intention anyway (all I really wanted was a hug) but the problem was I am shy.

right...
Check please


PS- Off to Portland, OR If I had thought ahead I would have posted and asked for someone to take me out. I'll be at Steven Malkmus..
see you next week.