FUN FUN FUN!!! This place sucks...
OK done with the ranting...
well...same old shit...my second week back home...I got a job at dominos with my best friends(Tiff) little brother and sister..its actually alot of fun....we just fuck off and eat pizza and cinnastix..Im also gettin another part-time job at Fresh Fields health food store in Annapolis. Atleast that will keep me busy...Ive been reading a lot lately..most recent~"East of Eden" by Steinbeck...its awesome...
Besides the books and the jobs...i feel so lost here...I have like 3 friends..outta of everyone that use to be "close" with..2 have significant others in their lives..so that takes up most of their time..My best friend for the last 6 years and the closest person to me before i left for college is still in a coma from Nov.30 ...its devasting without her....and i realized that was the only TRUE friend throughout all of my highschool 'friendships'....i spend most of my time with her when im not at work...its hard but there is always that determination, that hope in her eyes..that she remembers she knows..and when she smiles...i can see the girl who is more me than I am.
I miss her so much...
but in the mean time..ill try to find something to crave..something for my curious little mind to grasp ahold of...something here..that can attach myself to..that can hold my attention for longer than 2 seconds..
and until then...ill wait..read..and work..for now...
OK done with the ranting...
well...same old shit...my second week back home...I got a job at dominos with my best friends(Tiff) little brother and sister..its actually alot of fun....we just fuck off and eat pizza and cinnastix..Im also gettin another part-time job at Fresh Fields health food store in Annapolis. Atleast that will keep me busy...Ive been reading a lot lately..most recent~"East of Eden" by Steinbeck...its awesome...
Besides the books and the jobs...i feel so lost here...I have like 3 friends..outta of everyone that use to be "close" with..2 have significant others in their lives..so that takes up most of their time..My best friend for the last 6 years and the closest person to me before i left for college is still in a coma from Nov.30 ...its devasting without her....and i realized that was the only TRUE friend throughout all of my highschool 'friendships'....i spend most of my time with her when im not at work...its hard but there is always that determination, that hope in her eyes..that she remembers she knows..and when she smiles...i can see the girl who is more me than I am.
I miss her so much...
but in the mean time..ill try to find something to crave..something for my curious little mind to grasp ahold of...something here..that can attach myself to..that can hold my attention for longer than 2 seconds..
and until then...ill wait..read..and work..for now...
kajiseele:
Ohh im sorry. I really can say i know how you feel for just about Ohhh maybe half of all that the other half i really cant. East of Eden was good i never was a big Stienbeck fan but of all of his books that one i didnt mind. hmmm, but things to crave that is a harder one....lets see...i know...ive got it...you need to focus on giant wooden giraffes. No wait thats not it...well i will keep thinking and if you want we can try to discuss any ideas so that you dont go completely insane... smile
cookiepuss:
I'm sorry to hear about your friend that's in a coma.