acidsamuraix

Have you ever wanted to do something outrageous? I'm a pretty laid back, go with the flow person, but tonight (and yes, i have been drinking) I am so god damn bored that I thought about a few things. On my drive home from downtown Orlando, I thought..."What would it be like to feel a gunshot wound?". Now granted, I would never do such a thing for the pure fact that it has consequences. If I shot myself just to feel the pain, I would likely have my gun permissions revoked, I'd have to explain it to the hospital, I'd have hospital bills, etc. But a small part of me wanted to just go home, grab my gun, and give myself a nice little shot in the forearm, just to experience the pain. Am I nuts, probably. I dunno, lately I have just become so goddamn bored with this world that I need to make my own amusement. I can't have an intelligent conversation with anyone, I can't discuss politics and the world, can't discuss philosophy, anything. After college, the world just becomes a great big piece of shit with superficial asshats everywhere, and I don't know what to do with myself. I've left my home (Philadelphia) and found work in Orlando, met some great friends, but everything feels empty at night. I go home, alone, with nto a soul to talk to. Meh, no one will probably read this shit blog either, but at least it's fun to write. If anyone would like to hold some fun, interesting, intelligent conversations, please indulge me and excite my life just a little bit. Give me some hope that there is something left on this god forsaken planet to look forward to. Have a good one.
--JP