acidevangelist

Its a frame of mind. Unless they put me in hospital involuntarily then right now theres not a chance in hell. It also becomes your life. And to imagine that gone, what would replace it? It would be like losing a close friend.

Its just odd to think all these things are suppose to be about control and then you lose yourself in it. And it controls you. So with my eating disorder controlling me, why would "it" want to go get help? Hahaha that is a bad way of explaining it but hey