abyssia

Good to hear from you;...your always witty, the drugs just slow it down.
You can have any Post or assignment you'd like, it can only be an improvement.
I haven't been very good, I'm in a lost state, but I think I'm getting a grip.
Reality has been put through the blender and the mush that I'm left with is very hard to deal with.
----------------more later, I must open the Gallery.

That's about the sadest entry;...I keep reading it, and it just gets worse.
I can't fix this stupid world, sometimes I can't even point to where it used to be.
A Giant, completly non lecherous, HUG!
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Brian, you "Fuckstick", you make me ashamed of my Maleness.

----------------I Lied.

There is still much i do not know about you. And most likely even more i will never know. It is sad to see you go. You still have the aim if you ever need to chat.

Cheers,
~matt~

YOU!



that is worth more than any words i could offer you

i cant believe that someone would do that to you... you...

-hugs tight-

ahh pain. pleasure. a mixed twisted and intertwined enigma eh?

ps CONTACT ME ON IM YOU !!!

hey dude what happened .. are you serious?

need to chat or anything? .....

I am sending radio signals...from light years away....because its all relative....

Memory kicked back in:
" Slow down, you move too fast
got to make the morning last
just kicking down the cobble stones
looking for fun and feeling GROOVY."
(Simon & Garfunckle)-the kind and gentle precursor to the acid gobbling heavy metal that was just below the horizon.
I love it Both ways.
andimissyou.

[Edited on Jun 06, 2006 3:34PM]

It didn't work?! What was that?

So how are you doing? Where's your head at lately?

Writing in your journal can be a bitch sometimes. And keeping up with the inverted-net society on here.

Weird site

I did make sense, acting rationally instead of reacting.

Next time I`ll push my own buttons

Just wow...

Don't Leave me here;........All Alone Stay.




PLEASE STAY, I'll even clean up my room!
I'll take out the trash! I'll mow the lawn ! Whatever just STAY! PLEASE

Can't believe I never told you thar story.
I was in pre-kindergarden at the Pro-Cathedral in Baltimore, long ago just after the Inquizition.
And the Cathederal was huge and we were tiny and they talked about lots of huge scary stuff and lots of sacrifice.
We'd be in there being terrorized and I'd have visions of my classmates and myself all hanging from our little crosses on the wall.
It wasn't that happy an idea really, for a four year old.
So I told them I quit!!
They said , Ok sit here alone in the class room while everyone else is in church.
That lasted all of one day;..and they had be back in there hangig on the wall.
But I did quit, got dragged to lots of churches and heard lots of different angles .
But I was done being threatened and humbled by all of that, at least on a schedule.

[Edited on May 22, 2006 11:44AM]

Uh yeah you definately worded what I was trying to get at better than I. Although I tend to genearalise as to the general public and my view of them is certainly unconscious.
An experiment in fucking, ay.
Have you heard of the White Tigress?
Om Namah Shivay
Wouldn't a Aum symbol/icon be cool?

My uncle Donald wrote the family history quoted in my journal, and I am impressed by how much you infer from his writtings.

He is indeed a sensitive man, and I wish that I could say that he has a happy life, but his life has been aflicted by depression. This problem affects many aspects of his life, but he has so much to offer when he shows his best.

I love to read his letters, because his writting style is so good, but it can be frustrating to talk to him face to face or on the phone. He is family and I know how much he can offer on the goood side, but he tends to dwell on the negative and that has made it hard for him to make friends.

He lives in a small town in Canada, far away from the rest of us and I worry about him sometimes. I wish that he was closer or at least in a place without the time difference, so that I could call him when I am not tired.