abyssia

like a tv, empty
faces play upon me
stress, a nerve twitch
electric
wind me up?
a doll
a doll has no
identity
name her
name her again
dress her like this
or like that
set her in motion
more than that
am i
choices made
pathological
not sane
less than whole
like an animate doll
like Pris
but with less desire
less lust for life
like Rachel then?
blank and submissive?
yes and no
sometimes i rage
rage against it
rage
must be "me"
all that i never was
and never will be
just a pale reflection
of what they
what they would like
to see
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"All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain."