This time last year well technically at the start of last year i weighed the heaviest i have ever been in my entire life an for me that was 350+ lbs i usually always stayed around 280 that was where i always remained, course having been let go from the only job i was ever proud of waking up every morning an doing the one thing that made my fucken day was over cause i only had 1000hours to work. On top of that my depression an anxiety, life an relationship at the time beat the fucken shit out of me and i...i just couldnt find the strength to really get back up an keep dragging one foot infront of the other i just put my hands up an gave up, never in my life had i ever just thrown the towel in, and believe me from the moment i was born its as ive been cursed to pay for transgressions ive done in a previous life i just cant seem to catch a break or catch my breath every woman ive met utterly destroys me and i give them the very best if not more than i can even muster an still not good enough for them, fuck me right im actually one of the good guys that has a fucken heart an i get shit on constantly an women wonder what or where these good guys are well they're slowly being turned into fucking monsters is where they are. but i did i was worn tired an spent an im ranting lol.
But something happened i dont know if it was because i hit rockbottom or my favorite clothes didnt fit or i just got tired of being home all the time but i slowly started working out in secret so my partner wouldnt criticize me or talk shit soon enough i began losing weight. i cut bread out pop an other junk foods an then it just began melting off.
Weightloss an getting into shape has been the one an only thing ive accomplished with my life to completion i mean that im proud of dont think staying in shitty relationships till the other person doesnt care to hide the cheating or other shit counts lol.
So in advance sorry if my excessive selfies annoy anyone but its still something i cannot believe i refuse to see myself as anything but overweight though im getting better about it i still expect to catch myself looking like an overfilled sausage ready to burst lol.
I know my value i know im worth it i know im not a piece of shit i know im not as fucked up an broken as i was made to believe, i have my issues but you'll never meet another soul that'll go out of their way to show they care an love as much as i do even if i dont have much cash i share what little i got bring smiles an laughs...
Heres to another year alive! Cheers!
