absinthe

I am hot. I am magically babelicious.

Have you ever woken up and realized you've gotten ...icky?

It's been far too long since I've done all the combing, waxing, clay-ing, painting, tweezing, scrubbing, shaving, and cutting (etc, etc) that being a girl demands. The hair is the main issue. No matter how much I wash it, I get these yukky dreadlock snarl-balls.

This got me thinking about the many ways we poison ourselves on a day-to-day basis. Like, I know I'm using shampoo that was tested on rabbits. I know the chemicals in the printshop will probably give me cancer. I know eating pop-tarts or standing near my social room's decrepid microwave (thats two in one, I was microwaving poptarts!) are unsafe and unhealthy. I know spiders weave crappy webs when exposed to caffiene.

And then I started thinking about the other ways we poison ourselves, mainly, with stress and anxiety and those big, big problems we face all the time that really arent so big that they transcend the grand (but actually quite tiny) spectrum of human affairs into the rest of the universe. I just want to sit on the beach naked without worrying that I'm poisoning myself with worries and processed food and bleached cotton tampons. :menstruation:



Apart from these concerns the storm of recent events is starting to blow over. I'm getting used to being the daughter that is self-reliant. I guess I thought i always was and havent been uncomfortable until now when someone else thinks I am more than I do.
I was watching "thirteen" last night and have been thinking about the horrible/wonderuflness of been an adolescent. Some people seem to think that adolescence is a place where children act horrible and then grow up. But I think it's horrible to be a teenager and realize that you can have these amazing, abstract thoughts and no one thinks you're capable of or allowed to think for yourself and design your life the way you want. I know that my adolescence drew to a peaceful close within minutes of me moving out of the house.

were you a bad teenager? lets hear some movie worthy tales.