Let Down Day
Yesterday was one of those days when I feel like I let others down inadvertantly. I get so guilty about things like that. Ever since I was a little kid I've gotten so guilty about stuff. I dont mean to do stuff like this, sometimes I wish I were just genuinely flaky so i didnt have to care. Then I would be just as I seem.
I slept through two classes cause I've been having trouble sleeping at night. Then I stood up my friend in the printshop because I thought we were meeting at 6:30 but we were meeting at 4:30 (so at first i thought he stood me up, sad.) The only good thing yesterday was getting dressed up for no real reason, hanging out with Alohra cross-canyon and going to this sex-ed/awareness thing called 'sex and candy,' and then hanging out in the dorms with our friends, it was lots of cuddly fun. Its so nice to bond with friends and have those quintessencial (spell?) college moments.
But I stayed out too late and kept my Boy waiting by the phone. I've waited by the phone many many times so I know he must have felt very bad. 
But today I got up for lecture! and I'm blowing off yoga (which I love) to print t-shirts and make up for standing Will up. And I'm going to do my homwework, and call the Boy. The sun is shining, which makes things easier.
Yesterday was one of those days when I feel like I let others down inadvertantly. I get so guilty about things like that. Ever since I was a little kid I've gotten so guilty about stuff. I dont mean to do stuff like this, sometimes I wish I were just genuinely flaky so i didnt have to care. Then I would be just as I seem.
I slept through two classes cause I've been having trouble sleeping at night. Then I stood up my friend in the printshop because I thought we were meeting at 6:30 but we were meeting at 4:30 (so at first i thought he stood me up, sad.) The only good thing yesterday was getting dressed up for no real reason, hanging out with Alohra cross-canyon and going to this sex-ed/awareness thing called 'sex and candy,' and then hanging out in the dorms with our friends, it was lots of cuddly fun. Its so nice to bond with friends and have those quintessencial (spell?) college moments.
But I stayed out too late and kept my Boy waiting by the phone. I've waited by the phone many many times so I know he must have felt very bad.
But today I got up for lecture! and I'm blowing off yoga (which I love) to print t-shirts and make up for standing Will up. And I'm going to do my homwework, and call the Boy. The sun is shining, which makes things easier.
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I know how you feel. My mom is rad, but somehow she managed to raise me so that guilt seems to be my overriding emotion.