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is what my boy and I and our housemates took day before yesterday. I was nervous about taking something speedy caue even a knifer of hash maks my heart race, but the guy we got it from (an old boyfriend of mine, a small world after all) said it had codeine in it or something slow like that so I gave it a go. It took a million years to kick in, so boy and I watched ninja turtles cartoons and waited. Our friend Aiden came over on mushrooms and was having a kinda bad time so I went to sit with him. Boy's housemates, Colin and Amanda, have this really comfy room so we went in there and turned on some music and my Boy came in. The three of of lay on the bed and that's when the stuff hit me. I had this hot-flash panic moment when I suddenly found myself so high, but I calmed down fast with boy's help. I was chewing on a kids pacifier, now my lips and gums are all torn up. Its funny cause apart from the teeth grinding I felt really relaxed and touchy. The mushrooms made me want to curl up and scrunch my hands, the extasy made me want to stretch out and crunch my fingers and toes and teeth.
Laying in there watching the boy talk to and comfort his friend, listening to what Aiden was seeing and feeling, made me feel a lot let scared about shrooming again. I realized I wasn't the only one who got scared, and that its easy to change your mood with the right place and the right people. That the intensity I'd experienced was normal, the feelings of getting confused, overwhelmed, or lost in sensory experiences is normal and can be remedied. We both shared the same affinity for cheerios while coming down off shrooms, although on E they tasted terrible. It was my Boy who really talked him down and made him feel happier and comforted. I could tell my boy is a safe and calming presense and can handle things, and that made me proud and glad.
When a buch of other people came into the room it was sort of a buzzkill for me. I really like the privateness and intimacy of the atmosphere, and my boy and I had been really open and close, and he had been very open, tactile, and kind to his friend. But everone coming in made me grouchy and disconnected. I felt like I was done every though I supposedly had hours of high to go. Overall a good time though.
Today I woke up from an evening of Sambuca and Gin and a night full of scary bad dreams to be sweetly awakened by my Boy. Sadly I had to jump out of bed, but it was to see my sister's cello concert, so it was good. My mom bought me birthday presents too.
You should all look at Venice's set, she's great !
Also, I got the best letter from Alohra today. yay !
Now I'm going out with my dear friend Cat (lessthanthree) who shot my second set, and I get to meet her fabulous boyfriend.
is what my boy and I and our housemates took day before yesterday. I was nervous about taking something speedy caue even a knifer of hash maks my heart race, but the guy we got it from (an old boyfriend of mine, a small world after all) said it had codeine in it or something slow like that so I gave it a go. It took a million years to kick in, so boy and I watched ninja turtles cartoons and waited. Our friend Aiden came over on mushrooms and was having a kinda bad time so I went to sit with him. Boy's housemates, Colin and Amanda, have this really comfy room so we went in there and turned on some music and my Boy came in. The three of of lay on the bed and that's when the stuff hit me. I had this hot-flash panic moment when I suddenly found myself so high, but I calmed down fast with boy's help. I was chewing on a kids pacifier, now my lips and gums are all torn up. Its funny cause apart from the teeth grinding I felt really relaxed and touchy. The mushrooms made me want to curl up and scrunch my hands, the extasy made me want to stretch out and crunch my fingers and toes and teeth.
Laying in there watching the boy talk to and comfort his friend, listening to what Aiden was seeing and feeling, made me feel a lot let scared about shrooming again. I realized I wasn't the only one who got scared, and that its easy to change your mood with the right place and the right people. That the intensity I'd experienced was normal, the feelings of getting confused, overwhelmed, or lost in sensory experiences is normal and can be remedied. We both shared the same affinity for cheerios while coming down off shrooms, although on E they tasted terrible. It was my Boy who really talked him down and made him feel happier and comforted. I could tell my boy is a safe and calming presense and can handle things, and that made me proud and glad.
When a buch of other people came into the room it was sort of a buzzkill for me. I really like the privateness and intimacy of the atmosphere, and my boy and I had been really open and close, and he had been very open, tactile, and kind to his friend. But everone coming in made me grouchy and disconnected. I felt like I was done every though I supposedly had hours of high to go. Overall a good time though.
Today I woke up from an evening of Sambuca and Gin and a night full of scary bad dreams to be sweetly awakened by my Boy. Sadly I had to jump out of bed, but it was to see my sister's cello concert, so it was good. My mom bought me birthday presents too.
You should all look at Venice's set, she's great !
Also, I got the best letter from Alohra today. yay !
Now I'm going out with my dear friend Cat (lessthanthree) who shot my second set, and I get to meet her fabulous boyfriend.
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before you leave, we need to do it again.