*sigh* this weekend was kind of a bust. Yesterday was a lonely sort of day in which I had to finish up all the shit I didn't do during the week, and today sang much of the same tune. 
its rainy and since everyone is studying for finals I feel pretty friendless. I have to remind myself they are still out there, just busy.
There was a formal, prom-esque dance last night. I love getting dressed up and dancing but the whole hooking-up aspect of things was lamer than lame so I didn't go. Had a little smuggled white wine with Sam and Lila tho at a really nice, chill dorm party - a nice alternative to the big frat-fest (we don't even have frats here) that was going on on my side of campus. Drinking socially in a dinner-type setting, rather than drunkenly yelling the lines from "Green Eggs and Ham" at 3 am. (It really happened.)
I have worries hanging over me, debts coupled with an unsuccesful job hunt. Its hard to search for a job in such a big, overwhelming city, when I know they're going to ask if I can work during the holdiays and if I have previous experience and the answer is a big fat double no. Shopping for the holidays and all that fun stuff is hard when I just got my bank statment. All Alohra and I do is shop and go to the movies. Its sad that has to end or at least slow to a crawl. I suppose I should stop complaining and just deal with it.
Speaking of going to the movies, we went to see Closer tonight. I had been looking forward to seeing it, and yes, Jude Law and Natalie Portman would make some cute, cute babies, but the whole thing put me in a downer mood, sexy though it was. It was all about love and betrayal and adandonment and strangers and secrets. It hit a little too close to home - although I guess striking nerves is a good way to think about whats healthy and what isn't, what matters and what doesn't. My favoirte line was some things like "have you ever seen what a heart looks like? its just a fist covered in blood." Huh.
Its weird when some movie makes you get all these questions about matters of the heart. That coupled with the play I saw this weekend, about a boy and a girl who go thru scenes of their (failed) relationship in reverse order from eachother, meeting in only one scene, where they got married, has made this weekend one involving a lot of thought on the whole love/relationship front.
Well, I'm going to go light my vigin mary candles and do little thinking, pull myself out of htis black mood I'm in. Send me kisses or tidbits of wisdom.
its rainy and since everyone is studying for finals I feel pretty friendless. I have to remind myself they are still out there, just busy.
There was a formal, prom-esque dance last night. I love getting dressed up and dancing but the whole hooking-up aspect of things was lamer than lame so I didn't go. Had a little smuggled white wine with Sam and Lila tho at a really nice, chill dorm party - a nice alternative to the big frat-fest (we don't even have frats here) that was going on on my side of campus. Drinking socially in a dinner-type setting, rather than drunkenly yelling the lines from "Green Eggs and Ham" at 3 am. (It really happened.)
I have worries hanging over me, debts coupled with an unsuccesful job hunt. Its hard to search for a job in such a big, overwhelming city, when I know they're going to ask if I can work during the holdiays and if I have previous experience and the answer is a big fat double no. Shopping for the holidays and all that fun stuff is hard when I just got my bank statment. All Alohra and I do is shop and go to the movies. Its sad that has to end or at least slow to a crawl. I suppose I should stop complaining and just deal with it.
Speaking of going to the movies, we went to see Closer tonight. I had been looking forward to seeing it, and yes, Jude Law and Natalie Portman would make some cute, cute babies, but the whole thing put me in a downer mood, sexy though it was. It was all about love and betrayal and adandonment and strangers and secrets. It hit a little too close to home - although I guess striking nerves is a good way to think about whats healthy and what isn't, what matters and what doesn't. My favoirte line was some things like "have you ever seen what a heart looks like? its just a fist covered in blood." Huh.
Its weird when some movie makes you get all these questions about matters of the heart. That coupled with the play I saw this weekend, about a boy and a girl who go thru scenes of their (failed) relationship in reverse order from eachother, meeting in only one scene, where they got married, has made this weekend one involving a lot of thought on the whole love/relationship front.
Well, I'm going to go light my vigin mary candles and do little thinking, pull myself out of htis black mood I'm in. Send me kisses or tidbits of wisdom.
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al:
Winter formal is actually kinda fun. I went as a robot junior year because the theme was Metropolis and Strom and the Balls played. I only hooked up there once, and that was freshman year, and weird.
chazstrummer:
My well of wisdom is a bit dry so...