Ryan has been acting shady lately. Like he is losing the love for me.I think he may be better off without me. I'm not that good of a girlfriend to him. I hate that he has a kid. We have been in love for 5 years now. Or maybe it's just my fucked up sleep cycle that is making me go crazy. I have a thought that I died over a week ago and im in hell. That's how bad my not sleeping is. I wish I could get ambien but i have no doctor or health insurance 
