abortion

Just came back from practice, it was ok, it wass together but the buzz had gone minutes into the jam. Saturday night i was told by someone you should be out getting pissed on a saturday and im sitting infront of the computer with a cup of coffee and thinking way too much. Alittle depressed due to October and what skeletons it holds for me. I never liked this Month it was always full of bad news and heart break.

Another realisation about my so called friends, i have 3 people i actually enjoy talking to and i barely see them really i have my fellow musician friends who are drug ingrossed and hate everyone (i shouldn't taunt i used to be one of them) and those people you know, you talk to and have no enjoyment knowing or talking to them. There ok people they just bore the fuck out of you with there routine personality.

I always said i was never the suicidal type (even though i have been) but then i realised i can't just waste what i have and should atleast wait until i achieve what i want to achieve but life after 30? I'm not too sure. i'll probably lighten up over the years.....