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and now im back for more ranting now with a grip of booze in me to fuel it all. So yeah i made the mistake today of goin to see my friends who my ex is stayin with. i thought she was stayin with her other friends at this point. But yeah apparently she had showed up all fuckin barred out and drunk off whiskey at my frineds house and decided to share her adventures of making out with several guys, flashing a room of guys and possibly fuckin another to us all. At this point i walked outside and slammed my fist into the brick wall to relieve my stress. WHY THE FUCK DO AM I DUMB ENOUGH TO STILL FUCKIN CARE BOUT HER?!?!?! she aint the person i fuckin fell in love with. shes on some damn ego trip of bein hot now which she always was but yeah i guess shes just showin her true colors. and it pisses me off so damn much that she puts herself in the situation to be takin advantage of on all those fuckin bars. god dammit why did i waste this last year on her WHY?!?!?! after seein her with all her bullshit its bout enough to make me go sraight edge again. fuck this world. i waited and searched so hard for somethin true and i thought i had it with her and obviously i was wrong gave her all the love i had and got shit on for it. i was just a phase in her life. fuck it all.