abbiss

So this is goodbye...

I just approved my six last "friends", they won't be friends for long, sorry. And I have 102 unread PMs. Sorry again.

I'm not leaving because my last sets were not accepted, my ego is not that big, I can accept rejection and still be proud of my work. I'm leaving because I feel I won't have anything I wish to shoot accepted in the near future. There is no point staying when you know you won't have the will to spend time and money and passion in something you don't believe in. I put lots of effort, along with 2Shadowland, to make sets I'm proud of.

This site doesn't seem to want anything too original or creative at the time. That's strange, because some time ago we were asked to be creative, with contests, and we were even offered money for it. May be they understood that it is not what brings the money. I understand this completely too. Take the money where it is. I do that too. It's logical.

I don't want to shoot just simple cute and sexy sets just for them to be bought. I think any girl should have a bed set and a cute simple one too if it is how she feels, but not only that. I need to express myself through photosets that tell stories. And that doesn't seem to be possible here anymore. I had so many ideas for future sets, they are all written in my phone. I won't delete them. As I won't delete my MR sets. I hesitated, but feel they are part of me and my story here. I want people to see them even when I leave, because I'm proud of them.

I apologize for the three sets I will may be never send, especially to Key for our gorgeous multi, and to the girls of the big Prague Multi.

I can't say I'm feeling bitter against the website. I'm just feeling bitter against what people want.

This was a huge part of my life. I started this with 2Shadowland, I convinced him into shooting me for SG. I'm sure he wants to convince me to stay, now. But I'll leave him here. He, and any girl, can still count on my help for shootings or for advices. There was a time when I was here all day long... and a huge part of the night. Because I needed it, because I was feeling well here. Because of you. Thanks to you. You know lots about me, through my blog. I tried to always remain sincere and open, and not to hide on here as I do in real life. You know when I was happy, you read about when I was feeling at my worst. If you still want to know about me, you can write to abbiss.suicide@hotmail.com and I'll try to go to this address and answer from time to time. And I hope 2Shadowland will still give me news.

You were really important. I mean... really. And fuck yes... I cry writing that.

I love you lots, sincerely as always.

I may come back, if things change.

Elodie (Dodie).