abadseed

je t'aime. simplicity.

Trying to foster a fledgling relationship. Got really drunk last night with her. Went home, things happened. No sex, but we both feel really bad. It's weird. I'm not sure we will be able to continue, from the way she is acting. She doesn't remember anything. Nothing bad happened, nothing we had not done before. Trust issues now. Things were less complicated a few months...
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After this week, the time has come for me to explore other avenues of employment. I don't think I can work as a butcher any longer. I'm simply tired of cutting up dead animals for a living. I want to do something that matters. I like that I work for a small business, that everything is grown 40 miles from the market, and my bosses...
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This little chicky baby is putting a lot of pressure on herself for reasons I don't understand. I have told her there is no need to rush things, but she doesn't seem to understand that I am serious. So, I was forced to punch the hell out of my trash can. Maybe a broken knuckle. Maybe a dislocated wrist. Not sure. Oh well! That's what...
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I'm doing some research for a paper that I hope to get published and recognized by folks like Michael Pollan. It's basically a damning of industrialized beef production and championing of locally produced animal proteins. Here is something to whet your appetite and tell you why I think this is sooooo important: 80% of the US beef supply is controlled by 4 companies. Sound familiar?...
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It's been a busy couple of weeks. I was the guest dj today on cd101, which was awesome. We were live at Muirfield for the Memorial Tournament. Quite waspy.

I'm still technically single, but I have a very close lady friend. She has spent the night the past two nights. We have so much in common, it is a little off putting. We like each...
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YOINK. I got her.

why the FUCK did i have to fall for someone who has a boyfriend. worse, why do they tell me they "adore me" and "really like you" and "feel apathetic about him most days" but "don't like hurting people" so they continue to stay with him. MOTHER FUCKER.