What a long, strange time since last I wrote here. I am being surrounded by the insanity of a toxic relationship from which I find it extraordinarily difficult to remove myself. Currently on a week of not talking to one another. I don't feel I've done anything wrong. Nothing to deserve this treatment. I am trying to do everything for her, to make her happy and comfy. I get my words twisted, and she holds on to things that I say in passing, treating them as gospel. She says she isn't good enough for me. Repeatedly she says this. I don't understand. That is, in fact, why we're on this break. Because she isn't good enough for me. She won't listen when I tell her that she is good enough, when I tell her that I love her deeply and truly. I'm getting the feeling that she wants to break up with me, but won't do it...she is trying to force my hand. Shit sucks. 

Also, I'll be at the North Market for lunch Tuesday, I'll stop by the meat shop there and if I see ya, will introduce myself and say hello.