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the boy and i are back together!


hearts and stars,
ashley

the boy and i had our first fight.

i'm sick of paying for the mistakes of prior girlfriends. i'm sick of the way he manages to aviod acknowledging how well i treat him. i'm sick of him not appreciating me.

so i told him.

he yelled, i cried.

we're better, sort of...but i'm not sure if we're still together. we're spending the next day or...
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dating is so ungodly complicated.

i mean, i like the boy, the boy likes me. so why are we just dating?

commit, dammit!





also, i'm incredibly impatient.


hearts and stars,
ashley

i've never masturbated...until about 20 minutes ago.

i was hoping for some kind of mind-blowing sexual awakening...not so much...

you would think that, since so many guys have touched me, i'd be able to figure it out...not so. i didn't even finish.

i really need to get off.

will some skinny, 20-something, nerdy, tattooed, emo boy please come stick it in me?

please?

i did something bad. i hurt someone and managed to hurt myself in the process.

i forgot that whole "do unto others as you would have them do unto you" thing.

i mean, it wasn't my idea and she deserved totally it, but since the punishment wasn't mine to give, i was punished as well.

now i have to choose:

- keep it secret and...
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i need sex.
more importantly, i need a relationship.

i'm in one of those "i need a man who can fuck me til i can't move then get me a mug of hot cocoa and hold til i fall asleep" kind of moods. have been for a while, actually.

i need to be romanced.


hearts & stars,
-- ashley

also, don't call me on saturday....
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just because i'm a theatre geek doesn't mean i want every single facet of my life to be full of drama.

- i'm quitting vinyl, and the restaurant biz, at least for a little while. i need a break.

- the doctor thinks i have fibromyalgia.

- the current love interest has be come so ungodly frustrating. it might be time to cut him...
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congratulations, gimix! you're this month's Close Friend that I would Fuck:

he's a navy man (which is really hot) and he's huge geek (which is even hotter). we talk almost every day and no topic is too personal. he's so easy to talk to that we've talked about everything from video games to realtionships and everything in between, so we're really comfortable telling...
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last night, i lost my anal virginity...i didn't love it, but i didn't hate it either.

i'm on the fence about this one.

Holy SGesus, havana was crazy!

i drank too much and partied like a rockstar. i met lots of new people and kissed some of them later. i'm pretty sure i made a HUGE ass of myself, but i met (and had pictures taken by) alissabrunelli, so really, the night was a success.