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just a note about this entry:
if you are my friend chances are you read my journals and know I'm not usually like this
if you are not my friend and are just coming here to get an idea about who i am read some of my previous entries, this isn't who i am, i don't want this to be your first impression of me.... but chances are Ive just made you curious and its a free country so whatever..






















horrible horrible night last night
i left and then he left and i came back because i was out of gas and he wasn't here and i didn't know if he would come back but i didn't care because at least i was the first to leave.
its all just pretend though, i could never leave him. i love him too much. its just so hard sometimes... i make things hard for myself. he wants me to go to the doctor but i don't want any more pills. he says I'm bipolar but i don't believe in that shit anymore.
why am i so afraid of rejection?

i have come to the conclusion that the most childish and rude and horrible thing to do is to ignore someone for no reason.

sorry, i feel better now
i get so angry and i just have to remind myself that there are sad pathetic people in the world who don't have the balls or the opportunity to walk all over people in real life so they do it on here.

OK, now here is some cuteness to cheer myself up



and some stupidity

OK I'm done being retarded,
i don't feel safe speaking my mind here
if anybody wants to know what the fuck I'm talking about drop me a PM and i will explain my insanity to the best of my abilities