Hey-o!! Haha, love that movie! Anyways...so it's Wednesday and the last time I updated was Sunday. Only like a couple of days has gone by so not much has happened right? Fuck no, this is my life we're talking about. There's always som happening or event to tell about. Exhausting work it is!! (Sounds like Yoda with the cadence all fucked up.)
I shall start from Monday. I woke up feelin pretty spiffy. Kyle text me at like 7:20 that morning and he says, "I have been thinking a lot and I really need you to think about it too."
Me-"What have you been thinking about?" him-"If we keep goin on we're gonna lose our friendship ya know." My phone then stopped texting and I got pissed and just called him. We talked for a bit while I was doin my make-up and he basically was just concerned that if we stayed boyfriend and girlfriend that when we broke up, it'd be all sorts of difficult and shit. Uh...no shit yeah it's hard but ya grow up, pull up your fucking papmpers and deal with it. I mean Jesus, it's not like we were married or something. Anyways....he tells me he wants that day to think about it. He also says he will take me to work that afternoon. I'm like okay, fine I figured he'd get over it and all would be well. Mind you, this whole time I've got it in my head that soemthing happened with Dustie while he was at the dance. But since I had no idea I just gave up on that theory. Moving on....I get to school, and I find out we've got a hip hop master class being taught by this GORGEOUS boy named Jack. So we get all crunk and shit like bustin our asses with this kick ass choreography and then the class ends. My friend Brittany who has dance second hour when I aide, came over to me and basically told me that while she and her friend were at the dance, they saw Kyle kiss Dustie. Yeah I was fuming. I had one tear come down my cheek and then I got pissed. I found this out in between apssing periods for first and second hour. So when the bell rang and everyone was in their classes, I text him and said, "Do me a favor and get your ass outta class and coe meet me by the dance room." He says okay and about 15-20 minutes later he does. (Keep in mind this whole time me and Jack are talking and he knows about what was goin on.) So I go out there and he starts to bullshit some conversation with me. I cut him off and said, "Kyle I'm not gonna cut corners or sugarcoat this. All I need to know is if this whole thing has anything to do with Dustie." him-"No it really doesn't." me-"Okay.....so there's nothing you wanna tell me, nothing happened at the dance?" him-"No. Nothing happened." I ended up tellin him that I heard about him kissing her. Byt his time I am so pissed that I am yelling and cussing. He then continues by telling me that he never kissed her at the dance, he gave her a kiss goodnite. OH!! Okay, so that makes it all better? NOPE. And he also proceeds to tell me that he doesn't know if he wants to be in a relationship and that he was pressured into asking me out. Bull fucking shit. That is such a crock. So I look at him and say, "You don't know if u wanna be in a relationship? well shit, lemme help you out, you are no longer in a relationship. I'm fucking done. Fuck you and have a big day." And I walked away leaving him standing there not knowing what to say. Then I went back into the dance room and cried a bit. Not much but enough. So that totally ruined my mood. And then after second hour I was talking to Jack and he was so sweet bout it all. Like he invited me back to dance for third hour. SO I ditched my third hour and stayed in there with him. We talked and shit and he was just tellin me to forget about him and that I would find someone else who'd treat me right and all that jazz. Nice gesture and he is fucking gorgeous so I was down to talk about anything. So third hour was soooo much fun oh my gosh. Then after class I was talking to him about the company he is in. I told him I was interested in trying out. He invited me to come to the studio where he dances and teaches the next night to try it out. How kick ass is that? So then i go to fourth hour no biggie. Then I had to go to work. Kyle text me and called me to find out if I needed a ride to work but I decided against answering to him. So then me and Alex went to work. I saw him but had no reaction. I was still dreaming about Jack!!
Anyways, he text me something stupid while he was on his lunch so I called him and when he got back into the store, I went into the breakroom and we talked. Basically he blamed me for everything and said some really stupid shit. Of course none of it was true, but it still sucked to hear. So a little later I went into the bathroom and cried my big brown eyes out. It was terrible. But I got over it and had to go back on the floor. Niki was there too just shopping around and shit and she knew how upset I was so she convinced me to leave early and go with her for fries and cake at Ruby Tuesday's. That was sweet of her but it didn't quite do the trick. Then I went home. Now that brings us to Tuesday. That was alright till I saw his car when me and Alex were at Sonic during lunch. Then i just totally lost it. I was crying hysterically for like and hour. Then i had to go to work, but thankfully he was off. But unfortunately he decided to come in anyway. He had to buy something for his mom. He ended up coming to my department to say hi. I talked to our friend that he was with and then left them to go have a cigarette. Nice move by me. And no to the good part....Me and Taylor went to the studio that nite to dance with the troupe. She's already a part of it though so I was just he guets. When we walked in the room, I saw Jack and he got a big ol' smile on his face and we started talking. Oh my god he is amazing. While we were warming up he kept staring at me through the mirror. It was beautiful!!! Long story short, we danced and had a ton of fun.
I absolutely love it!!! We left and then I went home happy as could be. And finally that brings us to today. It was a pretty good day. I went to school with Conner and BT and we stopped at the park by my house and smoked a cigarette. Good way to start out the day I would say. Then we got to school and I hung out in their little spot and all of the boys slowly came up. And of course Kyle was one of them. He just hept staring at me. Whatever! Im not gonna be a bitch or make a big deal about it. We were friends before, during, and now we can be friends after. *Sigh* holy shit, there goes another long paragraph. Well, I gotta skeedadle now. Thanks for watching "Brown Bean Diaries" Tune in next time for more to this annoying yet oddly intriguing story of a young brown girl living amongst idiots. Good night...and good riddance!!
I shall start from Monday. I woke up feelin pretty spiffy. Kyle text me at like 7:20 that morning and he says, "I have been thinking a lot and I really need you to think about it too."
Me-"What have you been thinking about?" him-"If we keep goin on we're gonna lose our friendship ya know." My phone then stopped texting and I got pissed and just called him. We talked for a bit while I was doin my make-up and he basically was just concerned that if we stayed boyfriend and girlfriend that when we broke up, it'd be all sorts of difficult and shit. Uh...no shit yeah it's hard but ya grow up, pull up your fucking papmpers and deal with it. I mean Jesus, it's not like we were married or something. Anyways....he tells me he wants that day to think about it. He also says he will take me to work that afternoon. I'm like okay, fine I figured he'd get over it and all would be well. Mind you, this whole time I've got it in my head that soemthing happened with Dustie while he was at the dance. But since I had no idea I just gave up on that theory. Moving on....I get to school, and I find out we've got a hip hop master class being taught by this GORGEOUS boy named Jack. So we get all crunk and shit like bustin our asses with this kick ass choreography and then the class ends. My friend Brittany who has dance second hour when I aide, came over to me and basically told me that while she and her friend were at the dance, they saw Kyle kiss Dustie. Yeah I was fuming. I had one tear come down my cheek and then I got pissed. I found this out in between apssing periods for first and second hour. So when the bell rang and everyone was in their classes, I text him and said, "Do me a favor and get your ass outta class and coe meet me by the dance room." He says okay and about 15-20 minutes later he does. (Keep in mind this whole time me and Jack are talking and he knows about what was goin on.) So I go out there and he starts to bullshit some conversation with me. I cut him off and said, "Kyle I'm not gonna cut corners or sugarcoat this. All I need to know is if this whole thing has anything to do with Dustie." him-"No it really doesn't." me-"Okay.....so there's nothing you wanna tell me, nothing happened at the dance?" him-"No. Nothing happened." I ended up tellin him that I heard about him kissing her. Byt his time I am so pissed that I am yelling and cussing. He then continues by telling me that he never kissed her at the dance, he gave her a kiss goodnite. OH!! Okay, so that makes it all better? NOPE. And he also proceeds to tell me that he doesn't know if he wants to be in a relationship and that he was pressured into asking me out. Bull fucking shit. That is such a crock. So I look at him and say, "You don't know if u wanna be in a relationship? well shit, lemme help you out, you are no longer in a relationship. I'm fucking done. Fuck you and have a big day." And I walked away leaving him standing there not knowing what to say. Then I went back into the dance room and cried a bit. Not much but enough. So that totally ruined my mood. And then after second hour I was talking to Jack and he was so sweet bout it all. Like he invited me back to dance for third hour. SO I ditched my third hour and stayed in there with him. We talked and shit and he was just tellin me to forget about him and that I would find someone else who'd treat me right and all that jazz. Nice gesture and he is fucking gorgeous so I was down to talk about anything. So third hour was soooo much fun oh my gosh. Then after class I was talking to him about the company he is in. I told him I was interested in trying out. He invited me to come to the studio where he dances and teaches the next night to try it out. How kick ass is that? So then i go to fourth hour no biggie. Then I had to go to work. Kyle text me and called me to find out if I needed a ride to work but I decided against answering to him. So then me and Alex went to work. I saw him but had no reaction. I was still dreaming about Jack!!
Anyways, he text me something stupid while he was on his lunch so I called him and when he got back into the store, I went into the breakroom and we talked. Basically he blamed me for everything and said some really stupid shit. Of course none of it was true, but it still sucked to hear. So a little later I went into the bathroom and cried my big brown eyes out. It was terrible. But I got over it and had to go back on the floor. Niki was there too just shopping around and shit and she knew how upset I was so she convinced me to leave early and go with her for fries and cake at Ruby Tuesday's. That was sweet of her but it didn't quite do the trick. Then I went home. Now that brings us to Tuesday. That was alright till I saw his car when me and Alex were at Sonic during lunch. Then i just totally lost it. I was crying hysterically for like and hour. Then i had to go to work, but thankfully he was off. But unfortunately he decided to come in anyway. He had to buy something for his mom. He ended up coming to my department to say hi. I talked to our friend that he was with and then left them to go have a cigarette. Nice move by me. And no to the good part....Me and Taylor went to the studio that nite to dance with the troupe. She's already a part of it though so I was just he guets. When we walked in the room, I saw Jack and he got a big ol' smile on his face and we started talking. Oh my god he is amazing. While we were warming up he kept staring at me through the mirror. It was beautiful!!! Long story short, we danced and had a ton of fun.
I absolutely love it!!! We left and then I went home happy as could be. And finally that brings us to today. It was a pretty good day. I went to school with Conner and BT and we stopped at the park by my house and smoked a cigarette. Good way to start out the day I would say. Then we got to school and I hung out in their little spot and all of the boys slowly came up. And of course Kyle was one of them. He just hept staring at me. Whatever! Im not gonna be a bitch or make a big deal about it. We were friends before, during, and now we can be friends after. *Sigh* holy shit, there goes another long paragraph. Well, I gotta skeedadle now. Thanks for watching "Brown Bean Diaries" Tune in next time for more to this annoying yet oddly intriguing story of a young brown girl living amongst idiots. Good night...and good riddance!!
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I've been trying to tell her that for months now!
i hate to say i told you so, but... i fucking told you so.
and now that i've said that, i want to say i'm sorry that it happened lovie. you are so much better than this. you deserve so much more.
i loves you to tiny itty bitty pieces!
[Edited on Dec 14, 2005 11:10PM]