I can't take this...I just can't fucking take it anymore...I want to run...run far far away...something has to change...I hung up on Adam...felt so bad immediately...he didn't do anything wrong...just wasn't saying what I wanted to hear...dont know what I wanted to hear though...He doesn't understand how hard it is for me to ask for help...'Hi, I'm fucked in the head and miss class a lot...can you help me?'...doesn't go over so well...I just want to cry myself to sleep...but I can't...I have a loooong day ahead of me...I hate myself...hate what I do to myself...
I did it...I called the fucking doctor...I can't do this anymore...I hate being dependent...
There's a real entry before this...well, not real...just not this...
I did it...I called the fucking doctor...I can't do this anymore...I hate being dependent...
There's a real entry before this...well, not real...just not this...
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I know I'm not ur boy toy, but if you need any help.. let me know. Maybe a little vacation in San Diego will do you some good?
Have you thought about taking a semester off? It might give you some time to gather yourself. School's hard enough without all the surrounding bs that collects like highway litter... eh?
get well, sug.
Will be thinking of you and sending you blessings.