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So Cody told me he loved me and I didnt say it back. I told him I liked him alot an that I wasnt the type of girl to fill his head with words that I didnt mean and hes upset with me. He was supppose to stay over tonight but said hes not coming over after work. And I said okay. I didnt beg him to stay or try to change his mind I just let him go. Im prolly going to call him tonight and see if he talks to me normal or if its strained and go from there. I dont get it. Why get mad when Im being honest. I told him I liked him alot and that when/if it does become love I will be screaming it to him and everyone else for that matter so thres no doubt how I feel. I just dont deal in bullshit emotions and saying them to anyother person until I mean them. Why cant he understand that. Hes perfect in everyway but his emotions. Hes clingy and thats okay sometimes but I dont need a guy hanging around me 24/7 to feel secure. I told him to go hang out with his boys and Id hang out here and do my own thing. I dont want to be his everything I want him to have a life away from me like he did before he knew me. I mean hell we have known each other for like 2.5 weeks its not love for me yet. Maybe it wont be for another 2.5 months who fuckin knows. Maybe it makes me a bitch for not making him my everything but Its how I am. I didnt pretend to be anything other than what I am. I am sock.




Ps.
Cell convo with a utterly sexalicious man today fucking rocked my socks.