Nothing more disappointing than the "no pic" blog, haha... Well, deal with it.
Where to start?...
OK... First off, I due to a couple of major reasons, now have a iphone, despite avoiding coming to the dark side for some time. Soooo, if you are on instagram, you can follow. I'm signalse7en on there.
Hmmm... OK... I have a somewhat down blog but it's what it is. I've made some friends on here & I am just going to keep it real
I've been pretty depressed. Why? I'm sure it's all the life changes & massive stress that seemed to land on me at once.. BUT, Jeez man,. That is old news now. Sometimes you have mentally painted yourself into a corner before you realize how out of sorts you have been.
I've been putting on weight. Probably because the drastic change in income destroyed my well calculated diet. I was feeling so good last year & had a great exercise program. I sort of abandoned it because I was down, we had a wet winter & I really think I was due for some self destruction.
I only really noticed what kind of hole I've been in, recently.
Photography. The only reasons I am here is to meet people, make friends & to advance my photography. I had a little run going & was hoping to lock down a staff spot for the SE US. I look back and I haven't shot a set since early Nov, the day before I lost my job. Honestly, I knew where my camera/lens bag was but didn't even know where my camera was. It was under some clothes, haha... I then sat and thought it over & considered ebaying it all. Not because I needed money but just to write it off in my life. I was pretty hot to do that for a while & scoop up about 10G for whatever but my wife had talked me out of that idea through those times... as well as a few close local friends. So, I've been sitting on my gear as not to make a hasty decision. I just hadn't been feeling it lately & that depression thing tends to make one feel like they are failing.
So, I've been sort of running in neutral & needing a tune up.
I'm not the type that needs a pat on the back but more of someone who has to pump themselves up.
I started noticing the time going by, working at the tattoo shop full time. Damn, it's boring, lol. I have managed to scrape by. I don't think I realized how down I've been.
So, I decided to pull my bootstraps up & realize, I've been beaten down & burt out but that is a great time to reinvent yourself & start a chapter change. I'll admit, with a family, it is harder than when I was a single guy.
To get it together, I will have to start getting out of here....
I've been really writing a lot of music. Sadly, the caliber of bandmates I want may not be out there but I am looking & hoping for the best. I swore I'd never do another band but it is an outlet.
I'd really like to get shooting here before it gets much later in the year. I actually had two dates with Torye to shoot a new set but we had to cancel both due to weather & schedule conflicts, though I think we'll shoot soon.
I'd had some momentum last year & I'd like to get myself back together.... physically & mentally.
How? OK....
The weather is finally good enough to get back on my bike, which will take some determination. Luckily a close friend I ride with is recovering from his life threatening mugging/hit attempt & wants to get out & putting some miles on the bikes again. I'm totally down for some exercise.
Diet? I'm still planning a financially feasible whole food balanced diet. I'll have to put my foot down when I start riding. I'm a stubborn bastard & sticking to a strict diet exercise/training program is easy, once started.
I think I'm about ready to shoot sets again. I'm thinking of renting a much more fuel efficient car than mine, taking almost a week off, planning some shoots & traveling through Florida to make them happen. Maybe cross the state through Orlando to tampa, south from there, cross back to Miami & back up 95N home.
It's time to pull myself together... ya know?
Sorry bout all that. I've felt like venting lately.
These sets have been up for over a month but feel free to go look them over.
Where to start?...
OK... First off, I due to a couple of major reasons, now have a iphone, despite avoiding coming to the dark side for some time. Soooo, if you are on instagram, you can follow. I'm signalse7en on there.
Hmmm... OK... I have a somewhat down blog but it's what it is. I've made some friends on here & I am just going to keep it real
I've been pretty depressed. Why? I'm sure it's all the life changes & massive stress that seemed to land on me at once.. BUT, Jeez man,. That is old news now. Sometimes you have mentally painted yourself into a corner before you realize how out of sorts you have been.
I've been putting on weight. Probably because the drastic change in income destroyed my well calculated diet. I was feeling so good last year & had a great exercise program. I sort of abandoned it because I was down, we had a wet winter & I really think I was due for some self destruction.
I only really noticed what kind of hole I've been in, recently.
Photography. The only reasons I am here is to meet people, make friends & to advance my photography. I had a little run going & was hoping to lock down a staff spot for the SE US. I look back and I haven't shot a set since early Nov, the day before I lost my job. Honestly, I knew where my camera/lens bag was but didn't even know where my camera was. It was under some clothes, haha... I then sat and thought it over & considered ebaying it all. Not because I needed money but just to write it off in my life. I was pretty hot to do that for a while & scoop up about 10G for whatever but my wife had talked me out of that idea through those times... as well as a few close local friends. So, I've been sitting on my gear as not to make a hasty decision. I just hadn't been feeling it lately & that depression thing tends to make one feel like they are failing.
So, I've been sort of running in neutral & needing a tune up.
I'm not the type that needs a pat on the back but more of someone who has to pump themselves up.
I started noticing the time going by, working at the tattoo shop full time. Damn, it's boring, lol. I have managed to scrape by. I don't think I realized how down I've been.
So, I decided to pull my bootstraps up & realize, I've been beaten down & burt out but that is a great time to reinvent yourself & start a chapter change. I'll admit, with a family, it is harder than when I was a single guy.
To get it together, I will have to start getting out of here....
I've been really writing a lot of music. Sadly, the caliber of bandmates I want may not be out there but I am looking & hoping for the best. I swore I'd never do another band but it is an outlet.
I'd really like to get shooting here before it gets much later in the year. I actually had two dates with Torye to shoot a new set but we had to cancel both due to weather & schedule conflicts, though I think we'll shoot soon.
I'd had some momentum last year & I'd like to get myself back together.... physically & mentally.
How? OK....
The weather is finally good enough to get back on my bike, which will take some determination. Luckily a close friend I ride with is recovering from his life threatening mugging/hit attempt & wants to get out & putting some miles on the bikes again. I'm totally down for some exercise.
Diet? I'm still planning a financially feasible whole food balanced diet. I'll have to put my foot down when I start riding. I'm a stubborn bastard & sticking to a strict diet exercise/training program is easy, once started.
I think I'm about ready to shoot sets again. I'm thinking of renting a much more fuel efficient car than mine, taking almost a week off, planning some shoots & traveling through Florida to make them happen. Maybe cross the state through Orlando to tampa, south from there, cross back to Miami & back up 95N home.
It's time to pull myself together... ya know?
Sorry bout all that. I've felt like venting lately.
These sets have been up for over a month but feel free to go look them over.
I also have a couple new sets coming in MR later this month with Toxic & another with Renesme.
Ohhhh... we also adopted a really cool cat. That's a good way to end this .... pix next time
I promise the next post will be all fuzzy & something fun(ish)
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or the songwriting,
when one "can," one should,
simply to brighten the world for those of us who can't.