So I was going through one of the older profiles of mine on here, and wanted to laugh my ass off.. Christ I was messed.
But god I wasted so much time feeling hideous..
Also I fucking blogged everydamnedday...really? Lame.
That was like, 3 years ago..I was totally in shape.
this is now
I am soo different now. Emotionally.
In a lot of positive ways, though.
Physically, I am pretty much the same. Healthier, maybe..but who knows.
Christ I commented in my own journals too..
lameness.
I just think it is funny, and sad that every blog was about needing to lose weight, or get new boobs, or whatever. Not once was truly happy with me, where now..hell, I have bad days, but I have peace.
I miss a lot of those folks I was friends with. There are a bunch of you that have been with me since '05. Holy hell, weird huh??
Anyway..
my anemia is wigging out, and this makes me soo week. I am trying to go from my current weight down 5-8 lbs..I can't get to it..I just gotta drink beer and love food.. So I suppose it's a good thing I'm not getting naked on the internet for cash anymore.
I want to be a part of something beautiful and artistic.
But instead I will be me.
And I'm also anemic, well, on the border, but it acts up when I don't eat properly...... but anyway,
at any time, in the United States, like, 50% of women are 'dieting'.
isn't that harsh?