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Sometimes I wonder if there really is such a thing as undying love.

Sometimes I wonder if we are in someone's life for a little while, so that we learn something from them, and then once we learn, and share, the love dies, and we either live alone, or move on to another part of our emotional education.

Sometimes I wonder if I am just one of those people who is supposed to be alone. Thing is, it is not like I desire that. Just feeling like I am a bit of an island right now, and I am completely and totally over it.

I hope he and I are different from that. I hope we can be for a while.

Who the hell knows? Sometimes I feel like I need to drink myself numb, but if I do it, it will just make me feel worse.

Are we all destined to cheat, lie and wander? Will I be the one worth leaving?

On a lighter note, I am having a lazy Sunday. I need to do something to cheer me up a bit, or something. I feel like I should be in a good mood, but that stupid voice is nagging me. Fucking hell. I am going to unplug my mind.

Anyone want to cuddle?