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So this is who I have been hanging out with the last two days. Ah news television, how I love thee.





So, remember how the other day I was feeling all sunshine and rainbows about my looks..Not so great the last day or two. It is not that I want you guys to make me feel better. I just don't get how I cannot go more than a few days feeling good. I just end up getting wound up about my weight or feeling painfully troll like. I will be ok. I just wish I knew the science of self hate. I have done meds, they have not helped. I have done classes, they have not helped. I refuse to let my self doubt ruin my relationships. I just need to avoid mirrors and looking at my body for a few days. Why oh why do we treat ourselves so harshly, when we would be so hurt and enraged if someone treated the ones we love the way we treat ourselves.

So I am staying with my mom for a few days. I figure I should see her before my trek out west. I have my childhood kitty asleep on my lap. It has been a good few days.

I walked down to the bay...damn it was cold.