_lauren_

if i don't go crazy i'll lose my mind

had another great weekend. makes me happy just thinking about it.
kissing you is like standing on the edge of the world. and it's like all my best memories rolled into one. a song i couldn't live without. the sun on my skin.
i think that's out of some book. dunno which one.
i hate saying goodbye though. distance sucks.
why can i sleep okay when i'm with someone, but when i'm by myself my insomnia kicks back in again.

damn. i feel ... random ... i don't know how i feel. confused. kinda happy. kinda not happy. things are up in the air right now. time and time again what i want to happen never actually happens. it's all too fucking romantic and idealistic and perfect. i wish someone would just come and sort it out for me. cause i pretty much suck at shit like this. but i know that's not how it works. you have to be able to depend on yourself. cause eventually everyone's gonna fuck you over. i'd like to think they wouldn't. but when it comes down to it... maybe someone will prove me wrong.

my lip's healing okay. it's just kinda dry. annoying.

maybe we should end this race
vanish while we can
and leave no trace
that's pretty much how i feel...

so why did i do it? i could offer a million answers, all false. the truth is that i'm a bad person...

well, this is random
i'm just thinking about things. it's not good.