_kate_

why the fuck don't i listen to my gut feelings?!?!?!
why the fuck am i so stupid and blind?!?!
does being in love with someone do that to you seriously?!?!
if it does i want out right now!!!!
and i don't want to feel it again.
ever.
if love can make my heart hurt this bad and make me cry this many tears i want no part of it.
seriously.
i can't take it anymore.
it's not worth it. to give your heart to someone. and trust them to protect it. no people do not deserve trust. men in general do not deserve trust. not mine anyway.
fuck this day.
it's the fucking worst when you cry all fucking day over an asshole that you know you shouldn't be crying over but you can't help it. and the sickest part of all?!?!?


I STILL FUCKING LOVE HIM. with all of my heart. i feel so stupid and used and pathetic. i would like to die now. thanks for letting me rant.