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Ugh it's the weekend and all I want to do is sleep...taking 18hours continues to catch up with me that and the fact that I am still trying to get over my hermit tendencies. I don't know what it is, but somedays I just don't want to go out and deal with the rest of the world. I have so much to do school wise and yet I just lay here procrastinating. I'm tired of school, and CU, and pretty much everything. I am in need of a change. Oh well only a couple more weeks and than it will be Christmas Break. I have to go to the store today too. My roomate and I have this weird setup where she works all the time and I clean house and get the groceries. I feel like a fucking housewife and if anyone knows me WELL thats just not me. I used to love going to grocery store, but ever since my anorexia became more important I dread going because it takes me so long to decide what to eat. I am so picky and half of the things I buy and take home I don't eat anyways. The last time I was in Wild Oats I was wondering around and almost had a panic attack. I'd like to think things are going to get easier and they have been better since last year, but I still feel so overwhelmed.