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It's 1:30 am. Here I lay in my bed. Can't sleep. Can only seem to think.

Think about Valerie.

Think about nick.

I know she's toxic. I know she isn't good for me. Yet, I can't seem to fully let her go.

I don't think it's because she's the first person I've had sex with.

I hate this feeling. I hate feeling worthless.

I don't hate her, and I'm not mad. I just hate what she did.

I want to call her right now while she's asleep. Tell her I miss her more than anything. Tell her I want to see her beautiful smile, hear her laugh. I want to see nick.

But I can't, and I shouldn't.

No more tears for someone who didn't appreciate everything I did for them.

🎶I've been trying to fix my pride but that shits broken🎶