_fidelio

you are beautifully confusing in silence.

i feel forever a Tom Waits song, 'a day late, and a dollar short'.


youre across the hall, crying and singing between your sobs along with a band that i usually cant stand. Im alone and listening, you cry for a fool whose abandoned you, i cry for you.

ive seen you write beautiful things about other people.
i believe youve seen me write beautiful things about you.


shes in front of me, her back's to me. she shouldnt be here, shes supposed to out of town, gone. shes stayed home to add purpose and direction to my unforgivingly fractured evening. the truth is i loathed her being home unexpectedly all i wanted was...
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so i have many smarties. having many smarties wont quell the circular stimuli (rather my reaction to) generated in our home. in case you hadnt noticed, im not nearly as brilliant, not nearly as competent an interpretor as i may have led you to thinking. the simple truth is that try as i may i havent the faintest clue how to respond to you in...
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so, i know we dont talk much, and i realize how rude it is to "only call (you) when (Im) feeling depressed" considring that "when (I) feel happy (youre) so far from my mind" i know your "patience is stretched", your "loyalty vexed" i know all of this and i do apologize but just this once let me be the selfish brat, let me whine...
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oh my god it takes forever to upload to this site.....one bloody photo at a time....

but now its done, samples are up... LOOK LOOK!

im going to do a little dance and go sleep..

gnight

hello, a real entry and photos are on the way...and soon... i swear


ive soem late night puddle jumping i must be getting to.