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Monday May 14, 2007

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What the Fuck was That??!!

OK Let me first start with the positive, Tool was incredible! I really was not prepared with the correct mindset for this show. I guess I am used to shows where there is an excess of moshing. Tool was not one of those shows. The crowd around me consisted mostly of couples and I was instantly feeling like a third wheel with a universal adaptor. Its wasn't a bad thing that there were so many love birds but I was ready to throw down and mosh and all the guys had their arms wrapped around their girls. sigh frown But then I absorbed the show, relaxed and let the music take shape. And damn. It sounds corny to say but it was almost spiritual the way the music felt mixed with the lights and visuals. I feel blessed just to have been there. (Plus it helped that the last song was Aenima and I got my moshing wish biggrin)

And now for the shit. So ok. I'm weird about opening up and posting feelings and what not. I've found that being open has really fucked up alot of things in my life. I try not to. But I also need to vent, so bear with me. So I was asked out by this girl that really doesn't match my type, in the Air Force, doesn't necessarily look my type, have very little in common with it seems but I'm intrigued and I'm also feeling like a dumbass trying to figure out how to impress. Well, guess what. I would say I get an A for effort, and yeah that's about it. Don't ask me where that start up of dating stands. I guess there is a reason my relationships all ended recently, from both self destruct and otherwise. I don't know how to act. Bottom line is, I seem nice but my new instinct is to be an asshole. I've taken alot of shit from people so now the guard is up. So that combined with other fun encounters, Ex's and Ex's sister cursing me and fucking with me as I drive down the road had left me feeling like What the fuck was that? So there it is, it doesn't seem like much on review but its enough to post to just get off my chest. I guess its easy to get blinded by negativity. Blah, glad that's over biggrin
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pantsr4squares:
Feelings are for squares wink
May 14, 2007
__rae__:
yes. tool was fantastic indeed. were you on the floor?

don't beat yourself up over being honest. it's really the only way foreward. people who can't appreciate that are worthless.

nanoo nanoo
May 15, 2007

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