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if you found out that your husband of four months was on a dating website with a brand new profile, attempting to cheat on you, what would you do? maybe he hadn't actually cheated on you yet, as far as he is saying, but he definitely said he was single and was stating that he moved alone, lived alone, and didn't know anybody in a new town. he was definitely trying, and just hadn't had the opportunity to go all the way yet.

what if you read all of his messages to and from these girls on that site, and he clearly had chances to mention he was MARRIED, and did not. in fact, if he blatantly said he was not. what about if his profile pic on this site was him, from your honeymoon, with Piglet, and not you. and let's add a little insult to injury and say that this is the same site he met you on.... three years ago.

and one last tidbit of info, he listed himself as a drug user and a drinker, after you went to AA meetings and drug counseling with his felon ass, and he had sworn to you, almost daily, that he no longer uses. you also paid his debt, pay his bills, and give him everything humanly possible.

am i supposed to live with the lies for the rest of my life, or do we separate and get a divorce. i always said i didn't believe in divorce, but that cheating was my one exception. you cannot have a marriage where you do not have trust. i have tried to work all of our problems out constantly in the past, and he always begged me for forgiveness. with each new chance given to him, he went even farther and would hurt me worse than the last time. this, however, is my breaking point.

i love him so much, and i am scared for his well being if i am not there to hold his hand through life. but he is 26, and it is time to start taking some responsibility in life. i don't want to be the reason he fails in life, but is it really my fault if i was the loyal one, the one that held us together time and time again, while he did as he pleased. never caring about who he was hurting. i saved his life so many times, and pulled me out of my personal funk, and for that i felt like we owed one another some sort of chance. but i think the time has come to wake up and realize that i am the only one dedicated to making this work, and it takes 2 to communicate.