i caught danny sipping wine when he thought i couldnt see him. i called him out on it, and he turned it around on me.
after handing me a carton of ice he insisted i bring home, he tells me i have a food addiction.
as if him telling me constantly that im over weight isnt enough. as if me walking in on him countless times getting off to porn of girls that are literally sticks isnt enough. as if me being the only girl hes dated, and the one to marry him, that weighs more than 110lb isnt enough. as if him always pressuring me to go to the gym or go outside with him isnt enough. and as if my job isnt physicaly tiring.
when i want to go for a walk he wants to sleep or play video games. when i want to work out hes at work, and when i ask him to teach me to surf, hes too busy with his buddies.
why cant i be beautiful without being skinny. and not cute. the word cute is offensive to me. its what you say when you dont know what else to say. i mean gorgeous. why cant i be ME and be those things!
i hate the mold of society, and i know i will never fit into it, no matter how hard i try, or how much weight i lose.
he isnt perfect. ive saved him from drugs, alchohol, court, jail, etc.... so many times ive lost count. ive paid his way out of things and faught all of his battles. and THIS of all things is the only fault he finds in me? is that i have a "food addiction".
oh, im sorry. i didnt realize that eating once a day means youre addicted to food. piss off. i thought it didnt matter because my wedding dress looks amazing on me already, without a single alteration, but now i will need it taken in. apparantly food and i need to part.
my name is deanna, and this is my breaking point.
after handing me a carton of ice he insisted i bring home, he tells me i have a food addiction.
as if him telling me constantly that im over weight isnt enough. as if me walking in on him countless times getting off to porn of girls that are literally sticks isnt enough. as if me being the only girl hes dated, and the one to marry him, that weighs more than 110lb isnt enough. as if him always pressuring me to go to the gym or go outside with him isnt enough. and as if my job isnt physicaly tiring.
when i want to go for a walk he wants to sleep or play video games. when i want to work out hes at work, and when i ask him to teach me to surf, hes too busy with his buddies.
why cant i be beautiful without being skinny. and not cute. the word cute is offensive to me. its what you say when you dont know what else to say. i mean gorgeous. why cant i be ME and be those things!
i hate the mold of society, and i know i will never fit into it, no matter how hard i try, or how much weight i lose.
he isnt perfect. ive saved him from drugs, alchohol, court, jail, etc.... so many times ive lost count. ive paid his way out of things and faught all of his battles. and THIS of all things is the only fault he finds in me? is that i have a "food addiction".
oh, im sorry. i didnt realize that eating once a day means youre addicted to food. piss off. i thought it didnt matter because my wedding dress looks amazing on me already, without a single alteration, but now i will need it taken in. apparantly food and i need to part.
my name is deanna, and this is my breaking point.
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miyo:
I did hehe, i hope things are better?
philconnors:
Not much new. My best bud from High School is getting married this summer and I am his best man. We have been approved to adopt, so now we are just waiting on on a kid...my guess is maybe by the end of the year. Once things start happening, the process can move pretty fast, but we can be baby ready in 48 hours. We have the nursery, the crib on standby, the diapers, the support crew...the agency just has to say the word. Keep your fingers crossed for us, and have an awesome summer!