dammit, dammit dammit.
i always think i have things figured out.
then the perfectly arranged tray i'm holding gets knocked into the air and i'm left to create a new vision.
do you guys know how hard it is to have to look for a job when you don't want a job to begin with and you're starting school in a month anyway so what's the point?
yuck. i hate jobs.
i've pretty much decided to go for it with day school though. this is a big commitment.
these are my choices.
night school: mon-fri 5pm-10pm for 18 months.
day school: mon-sat 8:30am-5pm for 9 months.
pros and cons are as follows.
night school pros:
::being able to have a day job
::having the weekends off
::short hours
::having time to myself during the day
::having the weekends and days for the beach in summer
night school cons:
::takes twice as fucking long...i won't be out of school til may or so of 07. which means i won't be traveling much til after i'm 25. i'm 23 now. that seems frighteningly long.
::not being able to hang out except weekends
::only seeing shawn on weekends
day school pros:
::i won't have time to work
::i won't be able to party too much..only one night a week
::i'll be outta there by this time next year
day school cons:
::i won't be able to work so shawn will have to support me
::six days a week could be hell if i don't like it
::i won't have much time to chill coz i'll have to have all my alone time and my errand time etc after school in the evenings, then i'll have to go to bed early
::i'll only have one beach day in the summer
i was getting bitched at for not having a new job yet (my last day was supposed to have been friday---it hasn't even been a week yet!)
so i was going to go get one today. or go to the beach.
now i am stuck at home. of course, after three days in a row of not wanting to do jack shit, i now get motivated and bounce out of bed to find shawn has the car keys anyway.
i can't even clean out the fucking car!
grrr
in other news, i'm havin a bit o' trouble finding us a two bedroom actual house (not townhouse, not duplex, not small gated community, a HOUSE, on it's own lot, with a garage).
anyone knows of any leads you let me know. i have three weeks to move but i wanna move ASAP!
in other other news, we're going to nocturnal FOR SURE!!!!!
can't fucking wait. my best friends, new rave friends (it's usually four of us but our circle is expanding), lots of caffeine, a lil alcohol, SHIT TON of quality music....
i hope i can get my cute lil costume together by then! it's next weekend ay yay yay!
my roommate's parents are here. well actually one of his parents lives here. and he steals from us. a lot.
now he has his BITCH ex wife here all the fucking time. i can't stand it when someone is a bitch to me in my own house, much less someone who isn't even supposed to be here.
i'm going stir crazy i just wanna get the hell out of my house or at least do something productive besides listening to the tweekers in my living room blasting their horror movies at nine am and smelling their nasty cigarettes.
help!
i always think i have things figured out.
then the perfectly arranged tray i'm holding gets knocked into the air and i'm left to create a new vision.
do you guys know how hard it is to have to look for a job when you don't want a job to begin with and you're starting school in a month anyway so what's the point?
yuck. i hate jobs.
i've pretty much decided to go for it with day school though. this is a big commitment.
these are my choices.
night school: mon-fri 5pm-10pm for 18 months.
day school: mon-sat 8:30am-5pm for 9 months.
pros and cons are as follows.
night school pros:
::being able to have a day job
::having the weekends off
::short hours
::having time to myself during the day
::having the weekends and days for the beach in summer
night school cons:
::takes twice as fucking long...i won't be out of school til may or so of 07. which means i won't be traveling much til after i'm 25. i'm 23 now. that seems frighteningly long.
::not being able to hang out except weekends
::only seeing shawn on weekends
day school pros:
::i won't have time to work
::i won't be able to party too much..only one night a week
::i'll be outta there by this time next year
day school cons:
::i won't be able to work so shawn will have to support me
::six days a week could be hell if i don't like it
::i won't have much time to chill coz i'll have to have all my alone time and my errand time etc after school in the evenings, then i'll have to go to bed early
::i'll only have one beach day in the summer
i was getting bitched at for not having a new job yet (my last day was supposed to have been friday---it hasn't even been a week yet!)
so i was going to go get one today. or go to the beach.
now i am stuck at home. of course, after three days in a row of not wanting to do jack shit, i now get motivated and bounce out of bed to find shawn has the car keys anyway.
i can't even clean out the fucking car!
grrr
in other news, i'm havin a bit o' trouble finding us a two bedroom actual house (not townhouse, not duplex, not small gated community, a HOUSE, on it's own lot, with a garage).
anyone knows of any leads you let me know. i have three weeks to move but i wanna move ASAP!
in other other news, we're going to nocturnal FOR SURE!!!!!
can't fucking wait. my best friends, new rave friends (it's usually four of us but our circle is expanding), lots of caffeine, a lil alcohol, SHIT TON of quality music....
i hope i can get my cute lil costume together by then! it's next weekend ay yay yay!
my roommate's parents are here. well actually one of his parents lives here. and he steals from us. a lot.
now he has his BITCH ex wife here all the fucking time. i can't stand it when someone is a bitch to me in my own house, much less someone who isn't even supposed to be here.
i'm going stir crazy i just wanna get the hell out of my house or at least do something productive besides listening to the tweekers in my living room blasting their horror movies at nine am and smelling their nasty cigarettes.
help!
What are you going to be studying? Yeah, jobs suck...especially when you were looking forward to some quality (absolutely) free time...take it from me, that is my life right now. My tray is also getting fucked with...but I figure, what the hell, enjoy the ride, enjoy the change of pace. Once you start to get where you planned to get, life can get boring and you can enjoy the "mishaps". Hang in there, call me next time you go to the beach...I want you to see that video! You're so cute in it!