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k so my coffeehouse is waaay haunted. not too threatening, thank goodness.

at first i though there were just two, maybe a father and a son? i believe there was a fire, and the property used to be a farm or ranch. the large entity is very protective of his space and his 'son'. a very hot energy, and he likes to hide behind doors and watch you and come up behind you and just stand there. the smaller one likes to play hide n seek. he wooshes past you so you look over there, then over here....he gives off a very cool, but not really cold vibe.

jessica saw the child. she says she always feels like someone's watching her at the register, and one morning she turned around and there was a litlle boy, dressed in 30's or 40's clothes.

the other night shawn came in and walked around and felt 12 to 16 entities! he saw reflections and he saw one entity walking across the room in front of him, and on the freshly vacuumed carpet there appeared footprints! he felt the largest 'patriarch' entity but was not threatened in any way.

yesterday i opened by myself. it was all dark and i actually got creeped out! i'm not used to that anymore. usually entities are just people to me. i think it was because for one, i was exhausted and therefore not very well connected. also, because there are so many, and because they are not trying to send me any specific messages, it's kind of crowded in there. there's kind of a hum of conversation, the kind you can overhear but not hear what they're saying. i just don't like when i can't see and hear specifically what i'm coming in contact with. . if i see one entity, or if one is talking to me, i feel like i know what i'm dealing with.

oh well, yesterday i just started singing regulators to myself and pretending they were all just a bunch of customers going about their business. that worked well.

i also asked them to speak to me one at a time if they wanted to, and no one has yet. though it's hard to pay attention when i'm distracted with work.

i'm kinda freaked out about talking to nonphysicals after watching white noise last night. those three figures keep flashing up in my minds eye.

i know i'm protected, but i have way less desire to go looking for contact now. i mean, there's some fucked up energy in the physical. think how much stronger of fucked up evil energy there is in the nonphysical.

then again, there always will be--the realm of the relative extends past the physical i think. therefore there must be the unwanted for the wanted to exist. it's all a matter of attention.

so then, i guess i have nothing to fear...if my intention is to learn, to grow, to help and to heal, the law of attraction will bring me those circumstances, not dangerous ones.

plus the guy in the movie didn't know what he was doing. i would have been able to tell him all the stuff he was staring at screens and listening to static for days to find out as soon as i talked to his wife for him.

and i have some powerful guides. and i've been told i have stronger energy and keener psychic sense than most--i know this to be true. i must have a larger energy, or a group, focused through me than some. i don't think i have more psychic abilities than others though--i just use them more consciously.

anywho, blah, blah blah....