so i haven't been spending much time on here lately.. i've been in a self-induced funk.
what you focus on, you get. and that includes focusing on stuff like 'how are we going to make it through this' or 'i hate this' or 'where are we going to get the money to pay these bills'.
i'm coming out of it. it took a couple weeks of absolute pity-partying and depression for me to remember that all of this feeling bad started with a couple little nagging negative unchecked thoughts.
i've noticed that sometimes when the negative builds up, the only way to release it, at least for me, is to get it out. i can't focus on the positive with all the negative still gunking up my system. so i started writing down everything that was getting me down. that showed me not only all the good in my life that offsets the worries, but also the excuses i have been making while pretending to be a victim. so i released.
now i'm building back up to positive, and i'm able to focus on the things i love and want again, and it's such a relief!
the power of our minds is AMAZING. it blows me away the way shifting my thoughts and feelings about a subject brings a different perspective in which that subject isn't really bad after all.
"An activated thought means a thought that when I think it, I have a feeling response. If you're not having a feeling response to something, a feeling that feels good or a feeling that feels bad -- the thought is not that powerful, and it is probably not a big player in your vibrational mix. "
~ Abraham
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"You've come so far and so fast that you have the urge to rest. Buck up! You can see it through 'til the end. Feeling out of your element is normal, but you wouldn't have been given this opportunity if you weren't ready."
{{this has to do with my school. i've been letting myself focus on the frustration of having to take the time and pay to learn a whole crock of shit that i don't want to learn or feel i will ever need to know in order to get my license for what i love~ hair. i've also let myself get down over the fact that i don't have anyone to do fun hair on yet, and i feel i may burst before my talent and ideas are released into the world. i let myself think i wanted to quit school, that maybe it wasn't for me after all, and then i got down on myself for never following through on commitments i've made in the past. no more! i'm going to make my inner picture bigger and brighter than the one i have been seeing outside.}}
"Today you may notice that you are more idealistic than many of the people you surround yourself with. Perhaps you crave the balance of realism in your life, or maybe you like the idea that you offer a ray of hope to your pessimistic friends. The reason isn't clear. What is certain is that the people close to you love the way you look at life's travails. Keep your fresh outlook going strong today, because someone might need you to spread a little cheer."
{{yup, i am back to being my optimistic sunny self. realism only aids in balancing you when you use the 'reality' as a platform off of which to jump and reach for the happiness you wish to live.}}
"What's with the negative attitude lately? It's time you saw the glass as half full, not half empty! This level of suspicion you have toward other people has got to go, and quick. You know, some things that seem too good to be true are actually true. You can choose to have faith and hope -- after all, they're free, and they are more powerful than you could ever imagine. Pick up your chin and keep smiling. Things are about to get better."
{{WORD!!!}}
"Hear that? It's the volume of your romantic life, and it is getting much, much louder right now! An onslaught of social opportunities logically leads to more introductions, more chances to dress up and look your hottest, and more amazing results! This is a time to feel your magnetic power and truly believe that when you walk into a room, people notice your entrance. Sometimes this can be a burden, as it intimidates people and forces you to be the one to make the first move."
{{i have no idea what this could mean other than have fun, be my best self, and don't be afraid to reach out. but i like it!}}
onward and upward my friends, onward and upward!
what you focus on, you get. and that includes focusing on stuff like 'how are we going to make it through this' or 'i hate this' or 'where are we going to get the money to pay these bills'.
i'm coming out of it. it took a couple weeks of absolute pity-partying and depression for me to remember that all of this feeling bad started with a couple little nagging negative unchecked thoughts.
i've noticed that sometimes when the negative builds up, the only way to release it, at least for me, is to get it out. i can't focus on the positive with all the negative still gunking up my system. so i started writing down everything that was getting me down. that showed me not only all the good in my life that offsets the worries, but also the excuses i have been making while pretending to be a victim. so i released.
now i'm building back up to positive, and i'm able to focus on the things i love and want again, and it's such a relief!
the power of our minds is AMAZING. it blows me away the way shifting my thoughts and feelings about a subject brings a different perspective in which that subject isn't really bad after all.
"An activated thought means a thought that when I think it, I have a feeling response. If you're not having a feeling response to something, a feeling that feels good or a feeling that feels bad -- the thought is not that powerful, and it is probably not a big player in your vibrational mix. "
~ Abraham
...
"You've come so far and so fast that you have the urge to rest. Buck up! You can see it through 'til the end. Feeling out of your element is normal, but you wouldn't have been given this opportunity if you weren't ready."
{{this has to do with my school. i've been letting myself focus on the frustration of having to take the time and pay to learn a whole crock of shit that i don't want to learn or feel i will ever need to know in order to get my license for what i love~ hair. i've also let myself get down over the fact that i don't have anyone to do fun hair on yet, and i feel i may burst before my talent and ideas are released into the world. i let myself think i wanted to quit school, that maybe it wasn't for me after all, and then i got down on myself for never following through on commitments i've made in the past. no more! i'm going to make my inner picture bigger and brighter than the one i have been seeing outside.}}
"Today you may notice that you are more idealistic than many of the people you surround yourself with. Perhaps you crave the balance of realism in your life, or maybe you like the idea that you offer a ray of hope to your pessimistic friends. The reason isn't clear. What is certain is that the people close to you love the way you look at life's travails. Keep your fresh outlook going strong today, because someone might need you to spread a little cheer."
{{yup, i am back to being my optimistic sunny self. realism only aids in balancing you when you use the 'reality' as a platform off of which to jump and reach for the happiness you wish to live.}}
"What's with the negative attitude lately? It's time you saw the glass as half full, not half empty! This level of suspicion you have toward other people has got to go, and quick. You know, some things that seem too good to be true are actually true. You can choose to have faith and hope -- after all, they're free, and they are more powerful than you could ever imagine. Pick up your chin and keep smiling. Things are about to get better."
{{WORD!!!}}
"Hear that? It's the volume of your romantic life, and it is getting much, much louder right now! An onslaught of social opportunities logically leads to more introductions, more chances to dress up and look your hottest, and more amazing results! This is a time to feel your magnetic power and truly believe that when you walk into a room, people notice your entrance. Sometimes this can be a burden, as it intimidates people and forces you to be the one to make the first move."
{{i have no idea what this could mean other than have fun, be my best self, and don't be afraid to reach out. but i like it!}}
onward and upward my friends, onward and upward!
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they keep me inspired in this continual cycle of trying to get the bullshit and the angst out of my life... I feel like sometimes I just can't detach myself from it.. and its always gonna keep coming back, but I know I need to keep that shit from gettin me down and that there's so much better out there for me..
so thanks for your sunnyness!
take care dear