as
Keri would say, advice for today:
SPOILERS! (Click to view)cappy:
You can be the author of your own fate. If you don't like where your story is heading, you can do a rewrite. Sit down and think about where you've come from and where it is that you want to go next.
leo:
You're in the initial planning stages, and a lot of attention to detail is needed. If you're organized, you can maximize all the opportunities that are heading straight for you. Are you ready to hit the ground running?
scorpio:
It's easy to want someone to like you, but now it's time to take yourself aside and ask, do you even like them? Your answer may surprise you. Afterward, you'll know exactly what it is that you should do.
been thinkin a lot about the way i perceive and interact with people lately.
latest conclusion:
SPOILERS! (Click to view)i've been clinging to things that others have done to hurt me, things that piss me off, and disqualifying people from my 'friends list' because they choose to like people i do not approve of.
this is just making me feel like my world is limited and like every single person out there will disappoint me eventually too. it's just making me dwell on hurt and frustration and feelings of betrayal. it's been making me feel like i have to start all over and make friends who have never even heard the names of my old friends, which is a very overwhelming thought.. 'it's a small world, after all.'
it's time to let go. it's time to rise above others' actions, behaviors, words, attitudes...
it doesn't matter what others have done. it doesn't matter how they act or live.
i can choose my life and choose happiness regardless of their choices. i CHOOSE whether they affect me or not.
i CHOOSE whether i want to look for something to love about someone or turn away because they've done something or had an attitude or accept people that i disagree with.
i CHOOSE whether i limit myself, or free myself.
starting now, i'm choosing freedom. from now on, i choose to feel good about myself and about life and choose to look for things in others to feel good about. i CHOOSE to forget the past and live NOW.
i know my happiness depends on this choice. i feel good thinking this. i feel like one more puzzle piece has clicked into place.
i've been very conditionally happy... choosing to think of happy things in the future, but letting thoughts of the past and people from it pull me down when they come.
not any more. from this moment forward, it is my intention to be accepting and open and forgiving. i don't have to accept everything about others, but i can look for good things to place my focus on, rather than using my tunnel vision to dwell on the bad.
just because one of my friends is friends with someone i perceive to have wronged me, does not mean i should dump the friendship. it does not mean i should get pissy at them for not 'choosing me'.
it means i need to look deeper and feel my inner strength, feel that i am the source of my own happiness, and i can remain happy regardless of who does what to me, regardless of the choices others make. i can always choose me. i always know how to make myself happy and how to be good to myself. i don't need outside confirmation that i'm respected and loved, because i can feel that inside any time i want to.
i hope you all will remind me of and hold me to this new attitude!
sometimes it feels like a long road to self awareness, but i'm still enjoying the journey.
You have taught me, That as long as you can see the good in things, you'll be able to get through anything.... So if i see you fall outta your own teachings... I'll slap ya right back into it! HAHAHAA! I got your back honey!