As much as I love the Dog Whisperer, I think I may have had my fill.
My boi has been sicky-icky for a few days, and thats ALL. HE. DOES. Sits and pouts and watches DW.
I sat around with him last night after work because a) I wanted to spend some time with him and b) I figured I should relax.
Ended up getting stoned, eating and passing the fuck out at 6:30.
Then of course I awoke at 2am with my mind racing and it has not stopped yet.
Fortunately I guided my thoughts and they were racing only on a positive track...
Except for one subject.
There are very specific things that turn me on. Very specific ways I like to be touched.
And after four years, my boi still seems completely lost.
He always just reaches down and starts molesting me out of nowhere.
And I'm like, ok, get off me, that tickles. Or I'm like, dude, you have to turn my mind on and my whole body before you get to that step.
We've been through phases, on and off with our chemistry.
Gosh DARN it I know exactly how to please him, and have for years.. why is it SOOO hardfor him to figure me out?
I tell him and show him over and over.
But it doesn't seem to sink in.
I want to be with him forever.
But I'm done with phases of sexual satisfaction.
I want it all the time.
And I don't like being the leader with him. I want him to be the leader and give me what I want without asking.
So what to do?
I don't have a clue in the world.
I have been visualizing it. That's a start. Everything I visualize materializes.
Maybe I need to just let go of the 'how the fuck am I going to make him 'get it'' and just focus on 'won't it be fucking grand when he get's it'.
Yeah. I guess I just answered my own question.
Every time I bring it up with him he gets all sensitive and doesn't even want to try anymore.
So for now I will just visualize. And be thankful for all that we DO have in common and all the other areas of our lives that flow so sweetly together.
Big news later, but I wanted to put this out there and get it outta my head first so I can truly celebrate.
PS. Why the fuck do they have so much time in between new sets during the week and during the weekend they OVERWHELM us?? The staff here really needs to learn what the terms 'user-friendly' and 'balance' mean!
Pss. My sisters always make me feel better!!!
My boi has been sicky-icky for a few days, and thats ALL. HE. DOES. Sits and pouts and watches DW.
I sat around with him last night after work because a) I wanted to spend some time with him and b) I figured I should relax.
Ended up getting stoned, eating and passing the fuck out at 6:30.
Then of course I awoke at 2am with my mind racing and it has not stopped yet.
Fortunately I guided my thoughts and they were racing only on a positive track...
Except for one subject.
There are very specific things that turn me on. Very specific ways I like to be touched.
And after four years, my boi still seems completely lost.
He always just reaches down and starts molesting me out of nowhere.
And I'm like, ok, get off me, that tickles. Or I'm like, dude, you have to turn my mind on and my whole body before you get to that step.
We've been through phases, on and off with our chemistry.
Gosh DARN it I know exactly how to please him, and have for years.. why is it SOOO hardfor him to figure me out?
I tell him and show him over and over.
But it doesn't seem to sink in.
I want to be with him forever.
But I'm done with phases of sexual satisfaction.
I want it all the time.
And I don't like being the leader with him. I want him to be the leader and give me what I want without asking.
So what to do?
I don't have a clue in the world.
I have been visualizing it. That's a start. Everything I visualize materializes.
Maybe I need to just let go of the 'how the fuck am I going to make him 'get it'' and just focus on 'won't it be fucking grand when he get's it'.
Yeah. I guess I just answered my own question.
Every time I bring it up with him he gets all sensitive and doesn't even want to try anymore.
So for now I will just visualize. And be thankful for all that we DO have in common and all the other areas of our lives that flow so sweetly together.
Big news later, but I wanted to put this out there and get it outta my head first so I can truly celebrate.
PS. Why the fuck do they have so much time in between new sets during the week and during the weekend they OVERWHELM us?? The staff here really needs to learn what the terms 'user-friendly' and 'balance' mean!
Pss. My sisters always make me feel better!!!
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