Last night brought an unforgettable experience!
Those of you who know me know I love to use my psychic abilities.
My boyfriend does too. Actually, he's the only person I know besides me who uses those abilites.
We make a great team. He is extremely visual, so 'they' always send him streams of images, while I am very auditory.. I hear 'them' speaking to me.. (which is interesting because his vision and my hearing suck in physical life)
Ok, so we've been really changing the way we've been thinking.. since watching The Secret ...I've known about the Law of Attraction, but this movie really puts it in your head in a way that you remember it and grasp it and carry it with you and are inspired to change..
ANYWAYS that's a whole other NOVEL of an entry..
BUT I had to mention it because I've always wondered where my Grampa has been hanging out since he died (twelve years ago), and if he'd ever come back into my life, and if I would ever talk to him..
I've talked to him absentmindedly, sure, but never a conversation. I've felt his presence, but not interacted really.
Well since I've been guiding my thoughts much more deliberately, I've been thinking, of course my Grampa is going to be back in my life, whether it's in another form or however.. and OF course I can talk to him whenever I want...and I've been imagining talking to him and hugging him and just feeling his Grandpa-ness..
My Grampa is one of the top three most amazing beings I've ever known (not counting my family). I still cry if I think about him, I miss him almost as much as I did right after he passed. My parents feel the same way. If I could bring ANYONE back he would be IT.
My Gramma has been so different since he left.. She's gotten crazy and bitter and senile and a pain in the ass to the point where it's hard to remember the absolute joy she used to be... to where my family (they live next door, the two houses share a lot) is just over it and don't care about trying to get her to get along and be happy anymore.. I don't resent her, luckily I moved out before the major bootsy (bad) changes...
Well, last night we felt there was something not quite right, something heavy, in our house. I felt it as soon as I walked in the door and went into a BLAH mood for a few hours.. It started affecting Shawn too.. Finally we were over feeling bad and wierd for no reason we could think of and decided to deep breathe to clear our energy and the house.
WHOA. It's hard to remember it in a linear fashion to retell it, but I'll try.
As we were breathing and clearing, we felt this huge presence.
I don't remember how or at what point I knew it was my Grampa. But it was AMAZING. I KNEW it was him. I could feel exactly his energy, the way it was when he was 'alive'. He was talking to me! We were having a conversation...
Meanwhile he was flashing up many images in Shawn's mind of when I was young and he and I together (stuff I hadn't told Shawn about), like he wanted Shawn to feel the connection and the love that I always describe to him when I talk about my Grampa.. He was also showing Shawn airports and land he had flown over..and a lot of it that they had BOTH flown over (Shawn was studying to be a pilot til they wouldn't let him in the Air Force because of his sight, and my Grampa had been a pilot his whole life and an instructor)....he was showing him they had a lot in common and that he likes him...
Tears were STREAMING down both of our faces.. more from happiness and the sheer power of the flow we were in than anything else...
Grampa made it clear that he wanted us to go to Gramma and help her. He was showing Shawn images of her when she was young (images I haven't seen in pictures--and I know because I caught a few of them)...
It became powerfully clear that there were some entities in Gramma's house that he wanted out of there. Now I've always known about them, but never thought to do anything about them... Once I got into clearing and learned how to open a light for them to pass through and all that, I just kinda figured it's none of my business to go looking for those kinds of challenges, only to meet them if they present themselves to me...
It was AWESOME though!!... They were exactly the ones I've sensed my whole life without understanding what I was feeling!
... For instance there's a dirt walkway behind my Grampa's garage we all use to get from my parents' yard up the steps to my Gramma's house... When you go up the steps your back is to the garage door which is at the corner of the building... EVERYONE in my family agrees that at night they feel the urge to RUN up the steps and get into the door as fast as possible.. like something is chasing you... we always fought over who had to 'run to Gramma's' at night and made someone go with us, and then we would race up the steps..no one wanted to be last...it was freaky.. except that we're all used to it...
There were three more main ones.. one that chilled in the family room but never felt threatening, one that chilled right behind my Grampa's chair in the living room (this one freaked me out.. you could tell someone was right behind you watching.. not negative but creeeepy! Like it wanted you to notice it, it wanted to interact, not friendly, but not unfriendly..), and a BIG one in the hall and in my Gramma's room (their hall has a door at the entrance (which has opened and closed by itself as long as I can remember), and it's long and narrow with all the rooms on either side and my Gramma's room at the very end... you could always feel something following you up and down the hall, but it didn't like the rooms except for my Gramma's...)
Anyway Shawn could feel the one in my Gramma's room. I could feel it too. It was really heavy. Literally felt heavy. My Grampa was focusing us mostly on that one, like it's hanging over my Gramma when she sleeps and it's been affecting her attitude tremendously..
My Grampa was quite clear that he wanted us to 'GO to Gramma, GO to Gramma'... He wanted us to help her and to help him clear out the house...I could feel that my Gramma knew something was up and was uneasy..She felt heavy and broken...
He was telling us a lot in between... Like that he always used the Law of Attraction but never knew it... He was telling Shawn there's a way to buy the property (Shawn's been saying this to me since we found out my family is moving; now I know who's behind it.. I have not had that urge.. it must be something Shawn is meant to do)... That we need to focus on the end result and just enjoy the process instead of focusing on the process.. That we will help my parents to turn their negative outlooks around and that we already are.. that there is nothing we need to 'do' to do that.. just be happy and love them and they will absorb it...There was a lot more but it's not coming to me at the moment.
So after we got Shawn to calm down (OH! I forgot to mention that Shawn can channel!!.. he hasn't yet fully because he finds the experience to be overwhelming and uncomfortable, but each time he relaxes more and lets it get a bit further) (Anyway, my Grampa was trying to get him to channel him and he was freaking out about that.. I asked Grampa to tone it down and he backed off and flooded Shawn with positive images to soothe him) Grampa was really pushing me.. Go see Gramma, go to her...
So we breathed for a moment and built up our love and aligned our intentions.. my Grampa had already rushed back to her...
Then Shawn and I imagined going through the house from one end to the other, ending up in my Gramma's room...Flooding the house with love and light... My Gramma was in the family room and My Grampa was helping us a bit, but moreso staying with my Gramma giving her love and comfort so she wouldn't interfere or be worried...
We made a light for each entity.. They passed through willingly.. it seemed they were just stuck and confused.
I kept imagining a beautiful lotus opening up in the middle of the house, and then in the middle of my Gramma's room, radiating the most beautiful light and aroma..
I felt my Gramma relax... I could tell the house was the clearest it has been.. And it was important to my Grampa that we did that before they move, and also for my Gramma's sake to help her get back to her old happy self...
So that was amazing..
Then I got the most terrible scary vibes.. just like the ones I get when I'm running up those steps past the garage but intensified.. and I realized we hadn't cleared that out.. It didn't want to go into the light.. It didn't want to go anywhere..
My Grampa actually helped us with that one.. We all built up the love and light and then all at once kind of exploded it through the whole garage area... It took a bit but 'he' couldn't stay there with all that positive.. he had to go, there was no place for him there anymore.. I'm SO excited to go up there at night soon and feel peaceful and happy vibes for the first time in my life! And I helped do it!
After all that we were drained.. but in a good way..
Then my Grampa came back to our house and did exactly what I've wished for since his death... He sat right next to me and hugged me just like when I was a kid. I can not begin to describe the wonderfulness of being able to physically feel someone I love so dearly and have missed for so long right there with me, comforting me, giving me wisdom.. and me knowing that now that I'm in the place I'm in I can 'hug' my Grampa or ask him for advice ANYTIME I want to!! Those ten minutes were the icing on the cake of that experience. I felt like a little girl again. You know when you would be upset and your parents would hug you and that comfort just made you release everything and cry more? That's how it was. I was so happy, but I had sooo much to release.. He just kept telling me, 'just let it go, Just let it go!'.
So Yeah. Best All Hallows Eve EVER. I love you Grampa. Thank you!!
Those of you who know me know I love to use my psychic abilities.
My boyfriend does too. Actually, he's the only person I know besides me who uses those abilites.
We make a great team. He is extremely visual, so 'they' always send him streams of images, while I am very auditory.. I hear 'them' speaking to me.. (which is interesting because his vision and my hearing suck in physical life)
Ok, so we've been really changing the way we've been thinking.. since watching The Secret ...I've known about the Law of Attraction, but this movie really puts it in your head in a way that you remember it and grasp it and carry it with you and are inspired to change..
ANYWAYS that's a whole other NOVEL of an entry..
BUT I had to mention it because I've always wondered where my Grampa has been hanging out since he died (twelve years ago), and if he'd ever come back into my life, and if I would ever talk to him..
I've talked to him absentmindedly, sure, but never a conversation. I've felt his presence, but not interacted really.
Well since I've been guiding my thoughts much more deliberately, I've been thinking, of course my Grampa is going to be back in my life, whether it's in another form or however.. and OF course I can talk to him whenever I want...and I've been imagining talking to him and hugging him and just feeling his Grandpa-ness..
My Grampa is one of the top three most amazing beings I've ever known (not counting my family). I still cry if I think about him, I miss him almost as much as I did right after he passed. My parents feel the same way. If I could bring ANYONE back he would be IT.
My Gramma has been so different since he left.. She's gotten crazy and bitter and senile and a pain in the ass to the point where it's hard to remember the absolute joy she used to be... to where my family (they live next door, the two houses share a lot) is just over it and don't care about trying to get her to get along and be happy anymore.. I don't resent her, luckily I moved out before the major bootsy (bad) changes...
Well, last night we felt there was something not quite right, something heavy, in our house. I felt it as soon as I walked in the door and went into a BLAH mood for a few hours.. It started affecting Shawn too.. Finally we were over feeling bad and wierd for no reason we could think of and decided to deep breathe to clear our energy and the house.
WHOA. It's hard to remember it in a linear fashion to retell it, but I'll try.
As we were breathing and clearing, we felt this huge presence.
I don't remember how or at what point I knew it was my Grampa. But it was AMAZING. I KNEW it was him. I could feel exactly his energy, the way it was when he was 'alive'. He was talking to me! We were having a conversation...
Meanwhile he was flashing up many images in Shawn's mind of when I was young and he and I together (stuff I hadn't told Shawn about), like he wanted Shawn to feel the connection and the love that I always describe to him when I talk about my Grampa.. He was also showing Shawn airports and land he had flown over..and a lot of it that they had BOTH flown over (Shawn was studying to be a pilot til they wouldn't let him in the Air Force because of his sight, and my Grampa had been a pilot his whole life and an instructor)....he was showing him they had a lot in common and that he likes him...
Tears were STREAMING down both of our faces.. more from happiness and the sheer power of the flow we were in than anything else...
Grampa made it clear that he wanted us to go to Gramma and help her. He was showing Shawn images of her when she was young (images I haven't seen in pictures--and I know because I caught a few of them)...
It became powerfully clear that there were some entities in Gramma's house that he wanted out of there. Now I've always known about them, but never thought to do anything about them... Once I got into clearing and learned how to open a light for them to pass through and all that, I just kinda figured it's none of my business to go looking for those kinds of challenges, only to meet them if they present themselves to me...
It was AWESOME though!!... They were exactly the ones I've sensed my whole life without understanding what I was feeling!
... For instance there's a dirt walkway behind my Grampa's garage we all use to get from my parents' yard up the steps to my Gramma's house... When you go up the steps your back is to the garage door which is at the corner of the building... EVERYONE in my family agrees that at night they feel the urge to RUN up the steps and get into the door as fast as possible.. like something is chasing you... we always fought over who had to 'run to Gramma's' at night and made someone go with us, and then we would race up the steps..no one wanted to be last...it was freaky.. except that we're all used to it...
There were three more main ones.. one that chilled in the family room but never felt threatening, one that chilled right behind my Grampa's chair in the living room (this one freaked me out.. you could tell someone was right behind you watching.. not negative but creeeepy! Like it wanted you to notice it, it wanted to interact, not friendly, but not unfriendly..), and a BIG one in the hall and in my Gramma's room (their hall has a door at the entrance (which has opened and closed by itself as long as I can remember), and it's long and narrow with all the rooms on either side and my Gramma's room at the very end... you could always feel something following you up and down the hall, but it didn't like the rooms except for my Gramma's...)
Anyway Shawn could feel the one in my Gramma's room. I could feel it too. It was really heavy. Literally felt heavy. My Grampa was focusing us mostly on that one, like it's hanging over my Gramma when she sleeps and it's been affecting her attitude tremendously..
My Grampa was quite clear that he wanted us to 'GO to Gramma, GO to Gramma'... He wanted us to help her and to help him clear out the house...I could feel that my Gramma knew something was up and was uneasy..She felt heavy and broken...
He was telling us a lot in between... Like that he always used the Law of Attraction but never knew it... He was telling Shawn there's a way to buy the property (Shawn's been saying this to me since we found out my family is moving; now I know who's behind it.. I have not had that urge.. it must be something Shawn is meant to do)... That we need to focus on the end result and just enjoy the process instead of focusing on the process.. That we will help my parents to turn their negative outlooks around and that we already are.. that there is nothing we need to 'do' to do that.. just be happy and love them and they will absorb it...There was a lot more but it's not coming to me at the moment.
So after we got Shawn to calm down (OH! I forgot to mention that Shawn can channel!!.. he hasn't yet fully because he finds the experience to be overwhelming and uncomfortable, but each time he relaxes more and lets it get a bit further) (Anyway, my Grampa was trying to get him to channel him and he was freaking out about that.. I asked Grampa to tone it down and he backed off and flooded Shawn with positive images to soothe him) Grampa was really pushing me.. Go see Gramma, go to her...
So we breathed for a moment and built up our love and aligned our intentions.. my Grampa had already rushed back to her...
Then Shawn and I imagined going through the house from one end to the other, ending up in my Gramma's room...Flooding the house with love and light... My Gramma was in the family room and My Grampa was helping us a bit, but moreso staying with my Gramma giving her love and comfort so she wouldn't interfere or be worried...
We made a light for each entity.. They passed through willingly.. it seemed they were just stuck and confused.
I kept imagining a beautiful lotus opening up in the middle of the house, and then in the middle of my Gramma's room, radiating the most beautiful light and aroma..
I felt my Gramma relax... I could tell the house was the clearest it has been.. And it was important to my Grampa that we did that before they move, and also for my Gramma's sake to help her get back to her old happy self...
So that was amazing..
Then I got the most terrible scary vibes.. just like the ones I get when I'm running up those steps past the garage but intensified.. and I realized we hadn't cleared that out.. It didn't want to go into the light.. It didn't want to go anywhere..
My Grampa actually helped us with that one.. We all built up the love and light and then all at once kind of exploded it through the whole garage area... It took a bit but 'he' couldn't stay there with all that positive.. he had to go, there was no place for him there anymore.. I'm SO excited to go up there at night soon and feel peaceful and happy vibes for the first time in my life! And I helped do it!
After all that we were drained.. but in a good way..
Then my Grampa came back to our house and did exactly what I've wished for since his death... He sat right next to me and hugged me just like when I was a kid. I can not begin to describe the wonderfulness of being able to physically feel someone I love so dearly and have missed for so long right there with me, comforting me, giving me wisdom.. and me knowing that now that I'm in the place I'm in I can 'hug' my Grampa or ask him for advice ANYTIME I want to!! Those ten minutes were the icing on the cake of that experience. I felt like a little girl again. You know when you would be upset and your parents would hug you and that comfort just made you release everything and cry more? That's how it was. I was so happy, but I had sooo much to release.. He just kept telling me, 'just let it go, Just let it go!'.
So Yeah. Best All Hallows Eve EVER. I love you Grampa. Thank you!!
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