Okay, So I'm thinking about making the really dramtic change in my life...... I mean, this Huge change. I'm sorta tired and really stressed. I think the change will help with all that. But if it doesn't, I'm scared I'll be up shit creek without a paddle. I'm almost certain I will have no hope left if this doesn't help me.
Sometimes I really wish...
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"Dear god,
Make me a Bird
So I can Fly
Far Far Away from here...."
Make me a Bird
So I can Fly
Far Far Away from here...."
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screamqueenpinup:
I know just what you mean - I feel like that most of the time.
So, I want to see pictures of that car of yours lady. I'll post some of mine in due time. A kind of "before" pictures. Just hoping the "after" doesn't take so long but considering I want to learn about her myself, it just might. Luckily my mechanic is really nice but I need some friends nearby that are willing to help me out too. *hearts sqp*
So, I want to see pictures of that car of yours lady. I'll post some of mine in due time. A kind of "before" pictures. Just hoping the "after" doesn't take so long but considering I want to learn about her myself, it just might. Luckily my mechanic is really nice but I need some friends nearby that are willing to help me out too. *hearts sqp*
dreaming....
"I'm far away, and I'm feeling alone. I've got one week behind me just 6 more to go. If I could see you I'd take off your clothes and we'd lie in the garden and watch the weeds grow. The grass is so high. I can't see over. And the Moon is so Full, it's setting the stars all on fire. The City is...
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"I'm far away, and I'm feeling alone. I've got one week behind me just 6 more to go. If I could see you I'd take off your clothes and we'd lie in the garden and watch the weeds grow. The grass is so high. I can't see over. And the Moon is so Full, it's setting the stars all on fire. The City is...
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sebsis:
Actually there are some things that I don't talk about on here at all. I do think about the breakup a lot because of the impact the relationship and demise had on me, which is considerable. Mostly I don't want to forget and make similar mistakes and be a source for someone else feeling hurt if and when I am ever with anyone again. As it is, I am not hurrying into anything else right now. I'm just letting life unfold.
xaqary:
"I lie awake and think of you...."
Okay,....
Yes....
Alright.....
Ummm....
Well,.....
I guess....
No....
Wrong.....
No...
No....
No.....
GOD DAMN IT, You're Not listening to me!
Yes....
Alright.....
Ummm....
Well,.....
I guess....
No....
Wrong.....
No...
No....
No.....
GOD DAMN IT, You're Not listening to me!
neodrunk:
My bad... I'll start to pay more attention. *sorry*
sebsis:
Hi!
I'm so happy that someone can relate! I finally get rid of some of the anger last night, not all. I woke up around 2:00 and got dressed, got in the car, and took a long drive. I got home just in time to get changed, get gas, get a cup of coffee and be at work by 7:00. Sometimes taking a long road trip helps me clear my head. Last night was one of those nights. But I can't fake like it's not there. Because I know damned well it is. I don't think faking anything is ever an answer. If I can't sit and meditate, then I meditate while or by doing something else. And let me tell you. It's a lot of work for me right now, just to deal with a little. But it gets better. Unfortunately I have discovered the hard way that there are a lot of people who are into zen that I don't think are coming from the same place I think I'm coming from. I talk about it more freely on here, but if you ever met me in person the odds are pretty strong that you would have no idea I'm into it.
I'm hardly a teacher, and likely never will be, but I'm always willing to talk to people and share ideas. If you tell me how you learn to deal with things, or what you are challenged by, I will happily reply in kind. Or, if you like, ask me anything. I'm an open book these days...
I'm so happy that someone can relate! I finally get rid of some of the anger last night, not all. I woke up around 2:00 and got dressed, got in the car, and took a long drive. I got home just in time to get changed, get gas, get a cup of coffee and be at work by 7:00. Sometimes taking a long road trip helps me clear my head. Last night was one of those nights. But I can't fake like it's not there. Because I know damned well it is. I don't think faking anything is ever an answer. If I can't sit and meditate, then I meditate while or by doing something else. And let me tell you. It's a lot of work for me right now, just to deal with a little. But it gets better. Unfortunately I have discovered the hard way that there are a lot of people who are into zen that I don't think are coming from the same place I think I'm coming from. I talk about it more freely on here, but if you ever met me in person the odds are pretty strong that you would have no idea I'm into it.
I'm hardly a teacher, and likely never will be, but I'm always willing to talk to people and share ideas. If you tell me how you learn to deal with things, or what you are challenged by, I will happily reply in kind. Or, if you like, ask me anything. I'm an open book these days...
I need super glue.....everything is coming part.
was it all a dream?
if only it could be.....
if only it were a nightmare...i could forget
maybe i will forget
i only know.....
i don't have the strength to fight with my feelings anymore
i can't fake it anymore
breathing is difficult
way down here
if only i knew what to do?
how to escape this...
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was it all a dream?
if only it could be.....
if only it were a nightmare...i could forget
maybe i will forget
i only know.....
i don't have the strength to fight with my feelings anymore
i can't fake it anymore
breathing is difficult
way down here
if only i knew what to do?
how to escape this...
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xaqary:
what would you change?
The Whole World is NEW!!!!! Just got done working on my brain child. And it Looks great!!!!!!!! Too bad this remodel doesn't look so hot. We Even built me a new office, which is going to be sooo HOT after I'm done decorating! I think "big Fucking Guns" is gunna be the theme. All I need now is a haircut and everything could be near...
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xaqary:
how are you going to cut it?
It feels early but it's pretty late
I smiled more than twice yesterday
Things are getting better
I smiled more than twice yesterday
Things are getting better
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xaqary:
Bonnie and Clyde. We make hits. Your in the group 
xaqary:
Bathroom stalls eh? I never saw that before....
Hi I'm Cylde. I read minds.
Hi I'm Cylde. I read minds.
Heres To Shitty Days
And Warm Nights
And Boys who make you dinner when you are on the verge of Killing people
Love is GREAT!
And Warm Nights
And Boys who make you dinner when you are on the verge of Killing people
Love is GREAT!
xaqary:
I love you too
annysia:
awwwhhhh. that's soo sweet!
Deep set hatred burning in my guts.....why is everyone running me around. Why does everyone think for me? i am able to think for myself. Why does everyone seem to know whats best for me? Shut your fucking mouths.
I want to breathe easy again.
I want to be comfortable again
No, truely... I want everyone out of my life.
Good-bye, thanx for all the...
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I want to breathe easy again.
I want to be comfortable again
No, truely... I want everyone out of my life.
Good-bye, thanx for all the...
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xaqary:
Clyde has a short temper... and a big fuckin' gun. Make nice with the lady*sshk chic*cocks shotgun*
oldschool:
worksucks
Enough Bullshit for one year much less one day! 
UPTOWN DRAMA! It just Makes me Sick!
UPTOWN DRAMA! It just Makes me Sick!
xaqary:
and the crime spree begins........
"I know I would, I'd smother myself in brown mustard and relish, I'd be so delicious"
"Thay would become so abundant they would become our national curency, 20 hotdogs would be the equivalent of roughly five cents"