yellowdays

i swam for 45 mins straight, 2 days in a row. and i painted tonight.
feeling good. still broken hearted but good.

im really emotionally drained.
i realized a little while ago that i am in love with my best friend. surprise surprise. because i always do this. but ive been fighting it for ever. so while i was fucking my fuck buddy( which is off again btw and has been for about 3 weeks) i fucked his little brother. like new years, before my fuck buddy...
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in calgary with the wonderful lovely rin and uproot <3 i am very tired. i helped my very good friend move suddenly on wednesday cuz his house flooded and he was moving next week anyhow. but we moved from 2pm till 1am. and now im going out to a club tonight. energy drinks are going to be a must, blech grossness to the max.
i...
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so what pretel do i do the day i dont have to ride my bike to work? i run on my eliptical for 20 HARD mintues. my legs are burning. that bike ride in the morning is hard work with 35 pounds being pulled behind me for 15min of 30min. twice a freaking day for the last 3! man oh man. if im not 30...
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so tonight loki noticed the stars for the first time. which in itself was cute enough, so then he says ' oh they are so pretty' and i say ' the stars hunny?' and he says ' yah, just like you mommy' !!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 so cute.
then i sing him a couple verses to john lenonn's 'beautiful boy' before he goes to sleep at night...
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now i prolly have a bladder infection! WHY THE FACE?!?!?!? <<<< i saw a comercial for thsi show once, this guy was dating this single mom of teenagers, and he said to them ' im hip, im cool, WTF:why the face' so that is what i say now instead of what the fuck. im hoping it catches on, i think its halarious. stupid confusing acrinims....
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root canal today. anticipating feeling better tomorrow.
wasnt as bad as i imagined it would be, but deff not a walk in the park either.
looking forward to work tomorrow night, with the new dr and my fave dr to work with
also looking much more forward to seeing the lovely Rin anduproot this weekend. i miss seeing them 2 or 3 times a...
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i am sooooooo back on track. w00t
what a fantastik run. so much better than last night. and tomorrows will be even better. i also went on an hour long walk with my mother and my son today for the second time this week, and am doing it again tomorrow. starting in may i will start going lane swimming when i can fit it into...
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sweet i did it. and i didnt die.
doin it again tomorrow night no matter what.

running tonight for the first time in over 2 weeks. everyone wish me luck!

i am now taking new applications for a lover. my last one doesnt wanna have sex anymore because apparently im not 'the one' which i think is rather funny as he is adimant about not wanting to be 'in a relationship' and doesnt ever plan on getting married. funny, i dont want a relationship right now either, and i dont ever plan on getting married,...
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i am soooooooooooo hoping to feel better enough to work out tomorrow. i feel like a big lazy bones. urhg. even tho i know its not like i could. man oh man, stupid fucking tooth. its funny cuz i remember first noticing that it was longer than my other front tooth and thinking ' man i should get them to shave it down or somethin'...
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