I'm a nerd in stylish clothing.
I have managed to attract the attention of an extremely image-conscious, trend-starting, borderline-narcissistic musician.
To live the life of a hipster for a while? Or to stay comfortable, being nerd-me?
The most frustrating thing is that I know there's an equally geeky side of him that we can completely relate on... but since he'd so wrapped up in his...
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I have managed to attract the attention of an extremely image-conscious, trend-starting, borderline-narcissistic musician.
To live the life of a hipster for a while? Or to stay comfortable, being nerd-me?
The most frustrating thing is that I know there's an equally geeky side of him that we can completely relate on... but since he'd so wrapped up in his...
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I almost composed an Ode to Toast tonight. I just loved it that much.
I had smoked a lot of pot.
I had smoked a lot of pot.
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roby:
i ought to smoke more pot. i've only done it once. i am baby pot smoker. no, fetus.
ash:
Oh Toria ... I feel ya. One time I smoked a fatty and got so baked ... that I ate a whole loaf of bread.
Satan: Now then foresaken soul, open thine ears! And sate thy thirst on the music that can force kings to their knees! And oceans to boil! Behold! The song that will take you... to the top of the charts!
There's a guy named Fred and he's got a pair of slacks, ooooh, Fred's got slacks....
Really quite sharp but they're a little tight in the...
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There's a guy named Fred and he's got a pair of slacks, ooooh, Fred's got slacks....
Really quite sharp but they're a little tight in the...
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lemonkid:
indeed. she's a "woman lovely to her bones, when small birds sighed, she would sigh back at them". as my old pal Roethke might put it.
lemonkid:
if only I had dark brooding good looks... hahaha. I'm the biggest music nerd of all. yes.
Good to be back from Winnipeg. Lessons learned from that trip:
#1. I am utterly fascinating to my entire extended family, being the eldest grandchild of 12 grandchildren on that side. "Why do you have a piercing there?" "I heard you have a tattoo." "Is that your EIGHTH whisky and coke?"
#2. Whoever coined the phrase "cold enough to freeze the balls off a brass...
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#1. I am utterly fascinating to my entire extended family, being the eldest grandchild of 12 grandchildren on that side. "Why do you have a piercing there?" "I heard you have a tattoo." "Is that your EIGHTH whisky and coke?"
#2. Whoever coined the phrase "cold enough to freeze the balls off a brass...
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mrsmead:
so when are you gonna post some pics?
huh?
huh?
huh?
huh?
mrsmead:
you might remember me from the first and last posts on the second page of that entry 
i'm aware of your previous lack of imaging hardware, i was just poking you in the digital ribs
i'm aware of your previous lack of imaging hardware, i was just poking you in the digital ribs
Ah yes, the festivities begin.
I'll be spending all day tomorrow with my mom preparing a traditional Norwegian Christmas supper. Well, I'll be doing the veggie dishes, as the "ribbe" and the "medistekaker" are all meaty.
Then I'll be off to the winterland known as Winnipeg on the 26th for a family shindig. Then back to Vancouver for New Years.
You know, like you all...
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I'll be spending all day tomorrow with my mom preparing a traditional Norwegian Christmas supper. Well, I'll be doing the veggie dishes, as the "ribbe" and the "medistekaker" are all meaty.
Then I'll be off to the winterland known as Winnipeg on the 26th for a family shindig. Then back to Vancouver for New Years.
You know, like you all...
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superdee:
Vancouver for New Years... sweet!! Hope our paths cross, even just in spirit would be fun 
mrsmead:
what goes into ribbe and medistekaker?
Have you ever read a book that has hit you so hard, you want to throw it down and scream "FUCKING RIGHTS! YES YES YES!!!"?
I'm re-reading Huxley's Doors of Perception over the break from school. Every time I read it, I'll pick up on another nuance, or phrase I might not have given enough thought to the first time around.
I used to suffer...
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I'm re-reading Huxley's Doors of Perception over the break from school. Every time I read it, I'll pick up on another nuance, or phrase I might not have given enough thought to the first time around.
I used to suffer...
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filmme:
Ahhh yeashh..... brilliant those books are....
I was reading Beadrillards "Simulation and Simulacra" and I kept rereadingthe first chapter n case I missed stuff and I just kept getting more and more excitied....
crazy shit...
Happy Holidayszh...
I was reading Beadrillards "Simulation and Simulacra" and I kept rereadingthe first chapter n case I missed stuff and I just kept getting more and more excitied....
crazy shit...
Happy Holidayszh...
longblackbangs:
It is strange that "a sense of unreality" is a common symptom. When I got/get panic attacks it seems like an incredibly "real" sense of reality has hit me. Its like the part of the brain that blocks out how horribly frightening reality is all of the sudden shuts down and you have do deal with it all at once.
Like here I am spending/wasting part of the only life I have in front of a computer screen. This concept of pointlessly passing time should scare the shit out of me...in a panic attack it would...right now it seems like no big deal.
thanks for being my therapist for these past few moments
Like here I am spending/wasting part of the only life I have in front of a computer screen. This concept of pointlessly passing time should scare the shit out of me...in a panic attack it would...right now it seems like no big deal.
thanks for being my therapist for these past few moments
Regarding the lack of "real me" pics... as I may have mentioned to one or one of you before. I don't own:
a scanner
a digital camera
a webcam
or even a recent picture of me!
Pathetic, I know. And it's pretty weird, my profile pic now just really is my toria persona. You know? Anybody else get that? I'm not being "fake" on here,...
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a scanner
a digital camera
a webcam
or even a recent picture of me!
Pathetic, I know. And it's pretty weird, my profile pic now just really is my toria persona. You know? Anybody else get that? I'm not being "fake" on here,...
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lulumae:
I'm glad you like... thank-you
XOX-L
XOX-L
mrsmead:
Devil's Playground is great, but parts of it are really depressing
there's an amish crank dealer
there's an amish crank dealer
Tomorrow's my birthday. If kid me could see how little 22-year-old me cares about this, well, she'd cry. Wait, no, she wouldn't, as she was not a cryer. She'd probably make fun of me, then ask me questions about which boys I like.
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superdee:
Forget all the other sillyness, when are the b-day spankings?
almostfamous:
you always sound adorable, and are waaay complimentary. wouldn't hurt to get a look at you so i could return the favour
Sometimes I fucking hate this city.
Brief rundown of my night...
A friend of mine wrote his last final EVER, so a bunch of us went to the local watering hole-slash-"indie bar" for some beers. Turns out it's karaoke night, and there are some shitty off key renditions of Jesus Christ Superstar songs and drunken Bob Dylan warblings going down. I decide to take things...
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Brief rundown of my night...
A friend of mine wrote his last final EVER, so a bunch of us went to the local watering hole-slash-"indie bar" for some beers. Turns out it's karaoke night, and there are some shitty off key renditions of Jesus Christ Superstar songs and drunken Bob Dylan warblings going down. I decide to take things...
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doctorskinny:
How much pressure do you think that nozzle makes, too? Is it going to give the uninitiated enemas?
doctashock:
Oh, my dear, dear Toria,
If only living together was one of the reasons this is such a bad idea. It's fucking crazy I tell you. The kind of scandolous shit that I usually go above and beyond out of ny way to try and avoid.
At any rate, she and I have talked since and we both agree it should never happen again.
OMG!!!!!! I JUST SAW THAT CEREBELLUM'D MAKES YOU HAPPY!!!! I ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY LOVE THAT SHIT.
I actually went to the same film school as those guys. It's amazing how far it has blown up since the days when it was like me and 10 other people looking at the site.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
(and your naughty parts are welcome. Even though that was the clean version that you read.)
If only living together was one of the reasons this is such a bad idea. It's fucking crazy I tell you. The kind of scandolous shit that I usually go above and beyond out of ny way to try and avoid.
At any rate, she and I have talked since and we both agree it should never happen again.
OMG!!!!!! I JUST SAW THAT CEREBELLUM'D MAKES YOU HAPPY!!!! I ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY LOVE THAT SHIT.
I actually went to the same film school as those guys. It's amazing how far it has blown up since the days when it was like me and 10 other people looking at the site.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
(and your naughty parts are welcome. Even though that was the clean version that you read.)
I have to write a final on my birthday.
And not just any final.
This one's in a class on Racialization and Ethnicity. I thought it would be as interesting as it sounds, but I'll be damned. It was so dull, I've only been to one class since the second midterm. Uh-oh.
Luckily, we were given the questions for the final beforehand. But check out...
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And not just any final.
This one's in a class on Racialization and Ethnicity. I thought it would be as interesting as it sounds, but I'll be damned. It was so dull, I've only been to one class since the second midterm. Uh-oh.
Luckily, we were given the questions for the final beforehand. But check out...
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matt_organic:
Our final questions were so broad-ranging I'm surprised I managed to even get a start on them in the 3 hours we had per exam. I'm sure you'll do just fine. Having one on your birthday sucks though. My sympathies.
libby:
hey, i bought the orange eyeshadow because the chick at MAC said it would look cool on me. I was kind of worried about trying it but it looked pretty cool so i went for it. and i had previously bought a bright blue and the yellow so that i could make green and also wear them alone. so i decided to try orange and yellow and voila!
*first and foremost, bonus points go to anyone who actually reads the whole quote!!!*
Aldous Huxley... the godfather of "Emo"?
"We live together, we act on, and react to, one another; but always and in all circumstances we are by ourselves. The martyrs go hand in hand into the arena; they are crucified alone. Embraced, the lovers desperately try to fuse their insulated ecstacies into...
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Aldous Huxley... the godfather of "Emo"?
"We live together, we act on, and react to, one another; but always and in all circumstances we are by ourselves. The martyrs go hand in hand into the arena; they are crucified alone. Embraced, the lovers desperately try to fuse their insulated ecstacies into...
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mamabunny:
Huxley is good stuff-
I read doors of perception and heaven and hell a couple years ago back. Im working on Island.....
Love
MAMA
I read doors of perception and heaven and hell a couple years ago back. Im working on Island.....
Love
MAMA
vutek:
more like: try to get through huxley's first four novels.
Jesus. Damn you Kurt Cobain and your exploitation of the not wanting to be cool stature.
AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck it, I wanna be popular. Will you help me makeove my new image?