tonywestside

i hate the feeling of being lonely when i'm drunk, which is how i feel right now. this sucks. everything sucks. fuck. fuckfuckfuck. why can't anything just work out the way i want it to?

10 minutes later: i can hear one of my housemates and his girlfriend, my ex girlfriend and one of the few girls i'll admit to being in love with, having...
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i'm beginning to realize that i'll probably never be happy. everything disgusts me. i have no idea what i'm doing with my life. who the fuck am i anyways? i think the real problem here is that i'm not really anyone. i don't feel anything anymore. i have numbed myself to the point of never going back. i walk around campus feeling like i'm in...
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IT'S ALWAYS SUNNY IN PHILADELPHIA SEASON 4 COMES OUT ON DVD TODAY.

NEW SEASON STARTS THURSDAY.

My life once again has meaning.


How sad is THAT?

This is how I feel at the present time.

Drunk Again by Reel Big Fish

If I had a dollar bill for every time Ive been wrong
Id be a self-made millionaire and youd still be gone
So hand me down my best dress shoes and my best dress shirt
Cause Im going out in style to cover the hurt
All I wanna do all...
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"Would you suck Robert Pattinson's dick for a million dollars?"

"Dude, I'd suck YOUR dick for a million dollars."

Drunk at 9:30 on a Saturday night. The self-destruction has started again. I just don't know what else there is for me to do anymore. Que sera, sera, I suppose. Who needs a drink.

quitting smoking today. tried yesterday, but started drinking. emotions went haywire. probably would have hit someone if i hadn't bought another pack. but today's the day. i hope.

need to do something to get my mind off things. maybe paint. or write. or break something.

Alright, kids. Now I doubt very highly this will come to anything, but it's coming down to the point where my finances literally no longer exist. This is problematic for an infinite number of reasons, including things like bills, gas money, and food amongst other things. Also, finding a job seems to be next to impossible anywhere in this god-awful state (the interview i had...
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This a video of my song What It's Like To Be Alive. It was recorded last year at Wittenberg during one of these coffee shop semi-open mic things we used to have once a month. The sound quality is shit and it sounds like I have a lisp, but being awake at 4 in the morning, i decided what the fuck. I'm almost completely moved...
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So remember those "Good Idea/Bad idea" skits that used to be on The Animaniacs cartoon show? The ones staring Mr. Skullhead (who I still find it odd that in his own skits, no one ever could tell that he was actually dead) where, as the title suggests, he would do something that was a good idea, and then do something that was basically the same...
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