I'm trying this blog a day and it's kinda nice so far. It is allowing me a way to transcribe my feels ad where I am at life. THe thing I want to talk about today is my own personal fitness. Many of you might not know but I used to weigh over 300 pounds. I lost all that weight to join the...
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kaicito:
You could do it once, you can do it again...and for good!

I don't have to try to let people like me. I don't have to force it or feel upset. THey can downright hate me and who should care. Me? That is such a big relief off my back to know that it's okay for people not to like me or to just dislike me. What is wrong at all with just letting...
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...It's my birthday. I hate my birthday with a passion. It used to mean so much when I was younger and as the years go on I started to hate it even more. I suppose I started to dislike it when I realized that it was never going to be the same as when I was younger. I always get these big expectation that...
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madmaxthehatter:
If she wants to get you a gift let her, don't let you not wanting a gift Jack with your relationship. I have a couple of people that get me something small. Even if it's cheesy or stupid I do my best to let them know I'm thankful for it. I have had huge birthday blowouts that went badly and gave up trying as well but if someone wants to get something just try to play it that you like small things not big dollar items. It seems to help. 

I just can't do clubs. I can't do loud bars or clubs and see everyone happy. I don't understand and o just can't.... I don't see how people can be so happy sometimes.

babal:
So sad for you :/ Everyone should smile everyday!

It seems ever since I acquired my goal weight I have let myself go a bit. It's nothing terrible like it was before but it starting to make me feel a bit large. I am currently 205 pounds and have gained about 20 pounds since I have been in the Marine Corps. That is in all honesty my fault. Now that I am here...
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theslowrunner:
@iggy It sucks right? I have lost a lot of weight and I am never going to that point again. Still, I beat myself up for the smallest amount now. It's good to keep yourself in such a strict manner but damn if it isn't a heart breaker half the time. 
rubblerocks:
I think its fairly common to reach a goal and then relax and ask yourself "OK. What now?". Find something new to motivate yourself. And chill out buddy, this struggle/challenge is only going to last the rest of your life! I don't know how much THAT will help but it just might be the truth.

Something happened today. I was looking out my window and for a moment thought maybe I should be looking the other way. When I turned I finally saw the most amazing view of the ocean. My room has a view of the ocean and I didn't notice until I looked another way outside of my window. That's when I started to think maybe...
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theslowrunner:
@wizardo It is tough to do only because it takes a sense of self acceptance about things.
theslowrunner:
@iggy Trust me it takes a lot of work to stay positive. I wish I could say that I always am but I am only a human. So, I have my bad days but my good days vastly outweigh my bad days. 

Went skiing/snowboarding on Mt. Fuji and visited Tokyo. Best weekend of my life.

kaicito:
Aargh! Everyone is going to Japan these days... sooooo envious! Great pics, and thanks for sharing!
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For the first time in my life I kinda feel happy being single. I'm not too worried about finding anyone too soon and I love being single right now. It's just kinda awesome not having that idea of "will I ever find someone" hand over my head. It gves me time to focus on my fitness and my own goals in the Marine...
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phaseish:
fuck bitches get money.
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I want to make one thing clear right now to myself and everyone. I am in the pursuit of happiness. I want to make myself be happy and the only way I know how to do that, legally, right now is to work my ass off. I have lost all that weight. Hooray, good for me....Now I can't give up now that I...
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Today is Christmas Eve and tomorrow is going to be the first major holiday I spend without my family. I know I am not the only one in my unit who feels this way. It just bothers me. Also, I fucking hate my roomate so much. I think he is the biggest slob and has not ounce of effort. Pretty much he is the antithesis...
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kaicito:
Happy Holidays regardless!