It's raining...Rain makes me sad... 
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memyselfandi:
Rain, rain, go away....
oxy:
has it stopped yet?
I don't know if I believe in "signs"..Ya know when someone says they saw something and it is suppose to represent something else and it has to do with something in theirs lives? Does that make sense? Anyways if u have read any of my blogs you know what has been going on with me and my x. Well 2 nights ago I ended it...
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tonkakatt:
its a sign...don't smoke.
seriously though....I do believe in signs, for me butterflies mean freedom and various interpretations of it. thats why I have them tattood on me.
the small one on my ear was for a small loss I had 2 months proir to getting the tattoo, since the "loss" was small I wanted the butterfly to be small, I know that "it" is free...and fluttered away from me like a beautiful butterfly, the one on my back is when I realized that my marraige wasn't working, I've got the non solid tribal to signify the lack of solidarity, and the butterfly emerging from the middle is my freedom from the situation. there's more (meanings) them but thats the gist of it.
the deer you saw in the road that night was also a sign. usually when its an animal you have to look into their eyes to see "who" they represent.
seriously though....I do believe in signs, for me butterflies mean freedom and various interpretations of it. thats why I have them tattood on me.
the small one on my ear was for a small loss I had 2 months proir to getting the tattoo, since the "loss" was small I wanted the butterfly to be small, I know that "it" is free...and fluttered away from me like a beautiful butterfly, the one on my back is when I realized that my marraige wasn't working, I've got the non solid tribal to signify the lack of solidarity, and the butterfly emerging from the middle is my freedom from the situation. there's more (meanings) them but thats the gist of it.
the deer you saw in the road that night was also a sign. usually when its an animal you have to look into their eyes to see "who" they represent.
Well..I did it, I took his decision away from him and made one myself. I have decided to not wait for his answer and move on. I feel like shit, but I also feel as tho a weight has been lifted off of me. After all the shit that he did to me he does not deserve the right to make a decision. I should...
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Not much to say...Not much going on. I did put up some new pics, so check them out. I got a new haircolor..Or colors..Courtesy of Bananas.. ..She is awesome, so if you looking for a top notch Hairstylist, go see her she's the bestest... 
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tonkakatt:
I posted/rearranged my pics tonight.
MUAH!!!
MUAH!!!
tonkakatt:
spleunking....lol
yeah it is a fuckt up movie
yeah it is a fuckt up movie
Ok..I had my fun last night. But this morning how I felt was not fun. So there is only one solution to this madness...End it.
I'm not stupid, I'm not desperate and I do not need someone who does not give a shit about me, or especially my feelings in my life. I'm stronger than this. And I'm not going to let myself get walked...
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I'm not stupid, I'm not desperate and I do not need someone who does not give a shit about me, or especially my feelings in my life. I'm stronger than this. And I'm not going to let myself get walked...
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bodsht:
UGH>>>>What a dope this man must be. You do deserve better...xoxo
tonkakatt:
we never did go for ice cream
This is a repeat for some people...For others its brandy new..
Today I got a text from my x. Now let me give you a little backround. First this is the 3rd time this "man" had broken up with me. yes, yes I know shame on me for taking him back in the first place, but I had faith that this person would actually do...
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Today I got a text from my x. Now let me give you a little backround. First this is the 3rd time this "man" had broken up with me. yes, yes I know shame on me for taking him back in the first place, but I had faith that this person would actually do...
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tonkakatt:
uggghhhh I drank too much last night.
*shakes head*
at least we got the showering together thing done...lol how many months did that take.
*shakes head*
at least we got the showering together thing done...lol how many months did that take.
zenlunatic:
damn chica......yous a real woman......any man should love that.....if they dont, fuck em........
I had a pretty good time tonight...My sexy Fireman was there and he sat next to me.. 
Wev didn't really talk because we are both painfully shy but before I left I bought him a beer...I guess we shall see what happens..Kepp your fingers crossed.. 
Wev didn't really talk because we are both painfully shy but before I left I bought him a beer...I guess we shall see what happens..Kepp your fingers crossed..
tonkakatt:
Firemen, Staties...what next????
Off to play my "single girl' part. No sense in staying home and being miserable, he is not worth it. Hope I have a good time. Some of my friends will be there so I doubt I will have a bad time... 
memyselfandi:
Thanks for the kind comment. I hope I'll be a good dad.
Sorry you're single again. I'm sure you will have a good night out, and you'll meet the right guy again soon.
Sorry you're single again. I'm sure you will have a good night out, and you'll meet the right guy again soon.
So I did not pick up the rest of my stuff at my x's place. he can fucking mail me the keys to my car and I can mail him his house key and car keys..I don't feel the need to ever step foot in his apt again. It makes me to uncomftable..I don't want to know what is going on in his life, and...
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tonkakatt:
I'm going to buy a pool to put in the backyear...then i'm going to the wholesale club to buy jello...
zenlunatic:
teehee......im starting the jello revolution!!!! glad i could put a smile on your face......next time youre walking down the jello eisle at the store, youll laugh a little inside......hi bananas.......
Well im off to the Malll and then going for lunch today with my friend Kari...I also have to go get the rest of my stuff at my x's place, he is not going to be there but I really don't want to go anyways...
I'll admit i'm hurt and this whole situation sucks, but i did not do anything to bring it on. I...
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tonkakatt:
gotta love karma
tonkakatt:
Karma and Gregg....lol...I've been drinking tee-heee