Hi everyone, been offline for a few days due to my partner's visit to emergency and hospital stay. Previously I had talked about how her drinking was nearly killing me, but this time it nearly killed her. She planned on visiting her mother flying into London and then driving, she had always promised me she was never under the influence while driving and I...
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So the week is finally coming to an end, I have been a little behind on blogging mostly because things have been a bit rollercoaster like and I hate being the guy that only writes the negative side of things. I work hard to find balance in my life, it can be difficult but it is worthwhile.

The good, well there has been some great...
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Well first off, I have been absent from blogging for a little bit. I think my own negativity was getting me into a downward spiral and needed to take a few days to breathe.

The nightmares seem to be better controlled, my spouse and I are back to actually talking and not tearing each other to shreds...whew. I am always the guy that looks...
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Well, another Sunday morning...but mine started by being awake at 0100.

Why? Well a couple of reasons, not sure what the trigger was but the nightmare....fuck me too realistic, I was right back in Rwanda working the ward, all the sights and smells right fucking there. I had pretty decent control over this shit, now it's back. Fucking fantastic. So of course...
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