what do you people want from me, a real journal? stop hiding behind my poetry and post it on poetry kicks ass where it belongs? fine.
i am 27 with the heart of a fourteen year old surrounded by a fortress that i'm not even sure i can penetrate anymore.
i am 27 with a smart but broken brain who hides from pain, but ever...
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i am 27 with the heart of a fourteen year old surrounded by a fortress that i'm not even sure i can penetrate anymore.
i am 27 with a smart but broken brain who hides from pain, but ever...
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randomrockstar:
Hide behind your poetry all you want. I do that all too often, but you have to do what you need to do to survive in a world where everyone wants to fit in by not fitting in.
zak:
i know from experience that it's easier to hide than it is to figure out who you are.. i spent most of my life doing it.. but i never felt good about anything. lately i've been working on change.. slowly.. making it out the door, then making it to my destination, then actually socializing with people.
DENIAL OF THE ROBOTS
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C: MEASURING THE GOODNESS OF A ROBOT:
A NICE ELECTRIC BOY/MAN TRANSFORMER
RECEIVES ADVICE FROM A HOT FEMALE GO-BOT
SHE TELLS HIM HE KNOWS NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE HIMSELF GREAT
BUT YET ENOUGH TO HATE
ALL HIS COMPUTER MAL
-FUNCTIONS
AND ENOUGH NOT TO WASTE TIME IN BUSINESS MEETINGS OR...
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C: MEASURING THE GOODNESS OF A ROBOT:
A NICE ELECTRIC BOY/MAN TRANSFORMER
RECEIVES ADVICE FROM A HOT FEMALE GO-BOT
SHE TELLS HIM HE KNOWS NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE HIMSELF GREAT
BUT YET ENOUGH TO HATE
ALL HIS COMPUTER MAL
-FUNCTIONS
AND ENOUGH NOT TO WASTE TIME IN BUSINESS MEETINGS OR...
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LIFESTYLE OF THE FANGED AND FEARLESS
(AKA CHEAP ROMANTIC WISHES AND WOODEN STAKED DREAMS)
i want to have a dream that my two sharpest teeth are turning into fangs
because that way I could go straight for the softness of her neck
no shame, guilt, fear; just the sweet scent and taste of skin to sink in-to
and all with a vampires directness
i dont...
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(AKA CHEAP ROMANTIC WISHES AND WOODEN STAKED DREAMS)
i want to have a dream that my two sharpest teeth are turning into fangs
because that way I could go straight for the softness of her neck
no shame, guilt, fear; just the sweet scent and taste of skin to sink in-to
and all with a vampires directness
i dont...
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emilygee:
dude...uncle bill.
"jesus told me soooooo..."
"jesus told me soooooo..."
emilygee:
the uncle bill bath makes me want to puke in my mouth and swallow it.
if writers didnt write, theyd probably kill you
first chance, second rate rant
word tap dance, for apoor pathetic so-called artist
who cant part with his pen much less a stamp
for alast completed story, or ascript to send
to compete with the other whores
for ascore or a suck-cess or a buck or even a mention
in a boring literary scene magazine
(but what...
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first chance, second rate rant
word tap dance, for apoor pathetic so-called artist
who cant part with his pen much less a stamp
for alast completed story, or ascript to send
to compete with the other whores
for ascore or a suck-cess or a buck or even a mention
in a boring literary scene magazine
(but what...
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randomrockstar:
I hear ya...my brain is never quiet and I feel the same way about the beach. The only way that my brain seems to "nap" is when I'm writing, and that's more because it's puking everything through a pen onto paper...the ocean just makes me feel something other than an overwhelming sence of just plain blah...you know what I mean?
randomrockstar:
Don't worry about that...it was late and I really knew what you meant, but I didn't want you (for some reason) to think that I was stupid about that and thought that xanax was a sex drug or something...yeah...
Anyways, no worries buddy.
Anyways, no worries buddy.
striking black gold in the mind mine
5/25/05
only at this stage can i look back
and feel the full impact of a furrowed brow
seeing how the pent up place of the then
plays itself out
in almost every space of the now
today i am equal parts what i have been and what i might be
and while the present me buzzes in...
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5/25/05
only at this stage can i look back
and feel the full impact of a furrowed brow
seeing how the pent up place of the then
plays itself out
in almost every space of the now
today i am equal parts what i have been and what i might be
and while the present me buzzes in...
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candycox:
I always enjoy your poems, so talented... I like the idea behind this poem, and the line "feel the full impact of a furrowed brow." You're inspiring me to write more. I don't write nearly enough.
xoxo, CC
xoxo, CC
zak:
today i am equal parts what i have been and what i might be
this is good. i like this.
this is good. i like this.
life without Cable is complex. there is so much time to do other things, but i just cheat and buy DVD's of shows i love and miss. so lately i have spent a great deal of time with "Reno 9-1-1" "The Simpsons" and "World Poker Tour" in rotation. Does that mean i don't have TV? Do i watch TV? i can't watch shows other than...
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review for the twentysomething final exam
feed me the dull florescent light
and in the night the gnat flies dance beneath my eyes
into my brain trying to cling to the precious sweat of sanity
take my hand and tell me this still makes a man of me
and let your smooth sand skin
take me away while i slip inside
as you stare at...
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feed me the dull florescent light
and in the night the gnat flies dance beneath my eyes
into my brain trying to cling to the precious sweat of sanity
take my hand and tell me this still makes a man of me
and let your smooth sand skin
take me away while i slip inside
as you stare at...
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rayoflight969:
Like how it rolls..... you should come to big TEX and help me take the fucking place over with spoken word.... all the bitches and punks..... would end up fucked and punch drunk! 
zak:
read a couple of the poems you've posted in your journal recently.. and i think for a while about what kind of comment i can post, but sadly come up short.
i have never been able to comment on works i think are particularly good. afraid i might do them some injustice.
i have never been able to comment on works i think are particularly good. afraid i might do them some injustice.
FLESH CANNIBAL WORD SPITTER (or what the fuck can i write for the open mic tonight?)
i gotta spit a good piece so you can feel my disease creep off of me
like old peeling paint
i gotta paint a diction picture of a tortured saint before you notice my
hands shaking and my voice goes hoarse and faint
inside the lame sing-song rhymes hides...
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i gotta spit a good piece so you can feel my disease creep off of me
like old peeling paint
i gotta paint a diction picture of a tortured saint before you notice my
hands shaking and my voice goes hoarse and faint
inside the lame sing-song rhymes hides...
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candycox:
I really like this one. I like the comparison to the cannibal... I could really feel your words... sharp... glaring... honest. You generally have a strong, engaging tone in all of your pieces. I ♥ this poem.
xoxo, CC
xoxo, CC
clear day x-ray vision
synthetic prophetic word herds pathetic
stuck inside a fucked up mind behind below
forget it
regretting some but loving all
the world is a rock the world is a ball
they all fall down
my dirty socks are my downfall
a door with locks is my downfall
my brain and heart are my downfall
artistic linguistic bullshit letters dying together on...
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synthetic prophetic word herds pathetic
stuck inside a fucked up mind behind below
forget it
regretting some but loving all
the world is a rock the world is a ball
they all fall down
my dirty socks are my downfall
a door with locks is my downfall
my brain and heart are my downfall
artistic linguistic bullshit letters dying together on...
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candycox:
I like all the poetry that you've been writing. Very original, like the internal rhymes, your words flow well. Thanks for commenting on my stuff too by the way. Yay for us poetry lovers!
xoxo, CC
xoxo, CC
rayoflight969:
FUCK YA!
today i have nothing to say so i will just ramble away and hand a thought and how can i handle what is brought to me; i want to be pure freedom ; i want to be sedated and numb; i want to be a wise and old guy with the heart of a man and the eyes of the young; too much fun early...
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i wrote this five or six years ago but i want to share it again with myself and anybody else who wants to read it. unlike most shit i write, which i want to hide or burn, i still feel this simple little pooper:
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crying acid tears
digital high, cyberfuck
emailcommunication
cable lines that suck your mind
machines that change the station
PC death,...
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crying acid tears
digital high, cyberfuck
emailcommunication
cable lines that suck your mind
machines that change the station
PC death,...
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it's late. i started drinking green tea instead of coffee beacause it's better for you. but now i drink it at night when i wouldn't drink coffee because it's supposed to have less caffeine and if i drank coffee i wouldn't be able to get to sleep.
this is reminding me of the time i started smoking cloves instead of regular cigarettes when i picked...
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