Well i have decided to face a topic that is very emotionally charged. I have never met or talked to or heard from my biological father. so i am gonna get in toughwith him. that should be a healthy thing i am sure.
Felt that now that i am at a healthier emotional point in my life and open to more difficult things it should...
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Wow today is like a really strange day. I saw Garden state last night, and i think it fucked with my head. So many things in it really hit home.
But i so connected with the idea of feeling again. It seems like i have been being numbed and fighting feelings for so long i sometimes dont know what to do. I realised some time...
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But i so connected with the idea of feeling again. It seems like i have been being numbed and fighting feelings for so long i sometimes dont know what to do. I realised some time...
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minibeanie:
Detached and Healthy.....that kinda sux.....If I had to give up my health knowing that I would be happier, I just might do it....but I guess that will come around and bite you in the ass too.....health will fade and you go bye bye.....so what fun is that.......damn....now my head hurts....I thought to hard 
lauren:
It's acrylic and its about large/medium format canvas (I'm not sure about the specific measurements). I did not paint it. It was given to me for my birthday this year. My Mr. Grey is the talented one who created her for me =)
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[Edited on Sep 09, 2004 11:32PM]
Well my call weekend has come to a close. I am now free to move about the country and drink from the nectar of the fermented fruits. YAY, bookers bourbon here i come!
so of the 80 hours i was on call, i have worked 33 of those hours.
I am so getting my first tatoo at the end of this month!! ah but what...
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so of the 80 hours i was on call, i have worked 33 of those hours.
I am so getting my first tatoo at the end of this month!! ah but what...
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empress_chandler:
My vote is for zodiac symbols. 
Bourbon is sexy on your breath.
Bourbon is sexy on your breath.
pezdispenser:
I was thinking today of getting a tattoo in hebrew in honor of my jewish heritage, which is ironic, since you can't be buried in a jewish cemetary with a tattoo, supposedly...but I wonder if they made exceptions for all of the concentration camp victims that had numbers tattooed on their arms?
Well I have now completed 24 hours of being on call. I worked 14 hours of that time. that isnt too bad, i got about 5 hurs sleep in the last 36, hopefully i will get a few tonight. dunno. being on emergency call always leaves me so tense it is hard to relax.
I watched a mosquito suck blood from my arm today. it...
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lucilla:
I wandered about town today. Debating on whether to buy an armband for NWMusicFest...
lucilla:
where are you now? No, still deciding about the armband. Seems like a bargin...Yes I am into Dune. My screen name is taken from Heretics of Dune. The minseries are adequate, but I was never fond of the David Lynch version, even before I read the books. TMI I'm sure 
Well as all of you head off to a weekend of fun and relaxation, so starts my journey into 80 hours of surgery hell.
Wouldnt be so bad but i spend 13 hours assisting yesterday, with no break. It was so sad. we had this kid who split 3 fingers open and had to repair 7 tendons. he will never have normal hand function again...
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Wouldnt be so bad but i spend 13 hours assisting yesterday, with no break. It was so sad. we had this kid who split 3 fingers open and had to repair 7 tendons. he will never have normal hand function again...
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minibeanie:
Sounds tiring, but fun......
Thanks for all your kind words lately......
Thanks for all your kind words lately......
whitney2:
i ruined that shirt in a freak alcohol accident. 
meaning- i got really really really really drunk and took a nap in wet muddy grass. then a nap on a dirty dirty porch. then i got grease on it from a friends truck. rust spots from i dont know where. ugh.
meaning- i got really really really really drunk and took a nap in wet muddy grass. then a nap on a dirty dirty porch. then i got grease on it from a friends truck. rust spots from i dont know where. ugh.
So Gather round while i run it down and let fly my tale of woe. A story of a 3 day weeknd all ruined by a slack ass ho.
It all started when we hired this Bitch. she wasnt werf shit, always lied about what she was able to handle and where she was when looking for her. But finally there were no others to...
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It all started when we hired this Bitch. she wasnt werf shit, always lied about what she was able to handle and where she was when looking for her. But finally there were no others to...
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sassitude:
Thanks for the bit of advice, I try to keep that in mind most of the time...that maybe my situation isn't all that bad, but my state of mind isn't in the best place. I think sometimes a person just becomes completely overwhelmed with all the responsibilities and issues in their lives.
Yes! The Eagles! My parents listen to a lot of them, Eric Clapton, Tom Petty, and Dire Straits...so that's what I grew up listening to. Good stuff, the Eagles.
Yes! The Eagles! My parents listen to a lot of them, Eric Clapton, Tom Petty, and Dire Straits...so that's what I grew up listening to. Good stuff, the Eagles.
orchid1:
My hair is really short. Really short. And dark brown.
I don't know what either of those moments would be. I've never been good at those questions.
I don't know what either of those moments would be. I've never been good at those questions.
Well today i start my new schedule at work. It should be pretty cool. I wont have to work with as many people, and those that i will be workingwith are very cool. Goodbye to the day shift drama.
3pm-11pm. well atleast i will be makin more $$$. but where am i gonna go out on thurs and friday that late?? someone please help me!...
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3pm-11pm. well atleast i will be makin more $$$. but where am i gonna go out on thurs and friday that late?? someone please help me!...
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swingkitten:
The kind of car that makes you feel like you're married with three kids- even when you're not.
Yeah. '91 Subaru Legacy wagon, limited edition.
Boring as hell to look at, but it's got air conditioning, and cruise control, and lots of room for my dog, and a moonroof
Yeah. '91 Subaru Legacy wagon, limited edition.
Boring as hell to look at, but it's got air conditioning, and cruise control, and lots of room for my dog, and a moonroof
empress_chandler:
Let's hear it for clarity!
Glad to hear things are looking up.
P.S. A handfasting is a vow to be with your partner without the marriage thing.
Talk to you later.
Glad to hear things are looking up.
P.S. A handfasting is a vow to be with your partner without the marriage thing.
Talk to you later.
I am feeling alot better today. Finally think my ex is starting to disassociate some of her feeligs about us. Went and had lunch at Gustavs on sandy. The duck is sooo good i could eat it daily, well weekly at least.
Im gonna go kick it w a friend today. cus i am hella bored and i need to get out for a while....
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Im gonna go kick it w a friend today. cus i am hella bored and i need to get out for a while....
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slapmeharder:
omg duck! yummmmm so good.
i put the picture of my tattoo in my tattoos folder. it didn't work before. i'm sure if i can tough it out anyone can, cause i'm the biggest pussy ever.
i put the picture of my tattoo in my tattoos folder. it didn't work before. i'm sure if i can tough it out anyone can, cause i'm the biggest pussy ever.
the_cheat:
Hmm...That is a tough question. I would have to say the latter is better. Achieving an easy goal is easy, but failing at a hard one but learning a lot more than you ever could with the easy goal...That's much better.
I was 2 hours late to work today. I am in so much trouble. uh, being late to surgery is like being late to the airport when you are the pilot. it isnt pretty. Had to put up with alot of shit because of it. hope i dont get fired.
Had a big argument w my roommate/ex last night, it ended this morning at 7...
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damn_pretty:
Whoa, you sure do love the achocol don't cha?
Anyway.. good luck with that work thing.
x<3.
Anyway.. good luck with that work thing.
x<3.
empress_chandler:
When it rains it pours. Bummer.
Feeling do complicate things. Have you tried simplifying?
Feeling do complicate things. Have you tried simplifying?
so i havent really been around to talk to the ex. and she decided to push a conversational issue, so i got pissed and let fly with the hostility. Usually i skirt around topics to avoid confrontation. today i skirted around issues to force some hurtful comments to her. i was probably not really fair, but than again she has not been either.
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girlrobot:
Psh, you should have gotten trashed with me Call me soon so we can hang out.
Call me soon so we can hang out.Ok so yeah sunday sucked ass. I am glad it is over, but today was not much better. I am getting tired of having to act like i am still my exes bf in everything but name. If i hold something back it is some big issue. if i dont sleep with her, she gets offended. Cant she realise i want us to be friends,...
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the_cheat:
I would suggest looking in an "Apartment Finder." They usually list out prices and what not for rooms at various apartments, all over Portland and the Metro area. They all have phone numbers too (of course) so if they don't have the prices listed you can call and figure out square footage to the dollar and stuff.
Good luck.
Good luck.
tiffanymarie:
Well at least you were content. That's rough having to keep living with the ex. Good luck with everything for now.
well i got to deal w the roommate/ex this evening. it sucked. there was alot i felt like saying. that her petty reactions were insulting and childish. that her acting like nothing happened is even more irritation. She couldnt even look at me this morning. now this evening whe was all wanting a hug. I just wanted to tell her that she disgusts me with...
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hippomonki:
good luck with the room mate / ex, it is always a tricky situation...
sorry you missed the party, we had a good time, rum is good and bad news...
sorry you missed the party, we had a good time, rum is good and bad news...
tiffanymarie:
Definitely sounds that way. How long were the two of you together for? Good luck.
I hope things with you and your father work out. I don't know that I'd ever have the courage to do that. I don't even have the courage to phone "friends" I used to have.
I've been on a lot of medication. About 7 different anti-depressants. I felt like I was numb to everything. I never want to feel that way again.