razorshimmy

I need to find more ways to pass the time effectively.

Yessssssssssssssssss...
well, doesn't really mean that much, anyway, right? Gods, I just keep picturing myself in the tropics, stuck there. How wonderful it would be, for most, just living each day in the sun and the sand, and making their lives there.
But I keep thinking, no. I can't. Not till I make that mark. That mark I've been scraping at for years now. That...
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I.... I have a date... I can't believe this...
I'm trying not to get overly excited about the idea, but all I can think about is how badly I would like to not screw it up, which, of course, raises the likelihood that I'll completely screw it up. This is one of three dates I've managed to get in the past two years, and I...
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Whew, I knew I had some anger left somewhere inside, but it's really starting to bubble up to the top this week. I'll let a bit out, I guess, then try to cool down. I had forgotten what it felt like to really start to break apart.

Fuck and buggery! Lousy weekend rounded off with a car wreck. Not pleased, at present.

Saw In Bruges last night. Made me want to write. Forgot how much I like Martin McDonaugh. Have to read more of his work.

I probably need to get laid more than anybody I know. Too bad I'm generally so picky.

New home, at least for now. It seems there's a good chance that I'll have to move again in November, due to a breakdown in communication between myself and the French lady that I'm now living with. Highly confusing, but we'll see how it all works out.
Odd weekend. I've been without a phone or car since yesterday evening, and spent last night and most...
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Homicide number two directly outside my apartment. I would say that this makes me excited about my impending move, but really I don't expect it to be terribly different wherever I end up.
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as for the impending disappearing act... we'll see. Just a short break.

It is entirely possible that I may disappear down a little hole for a while. I'll try not to die, and to return as soon as a I can manage.

It would seem that I'm busy further obstructing my own life.

Well, was mildly pissed off after work Monday, mainly because of the usual flake-age of friends. Most of the time I'm mildly annoyed at my friends tendencies to say their going to do one thing, then do another at the last minute, but I'm adaptable enough that I can roll with it and have a good time. However, this was one of the times that...
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